bloodmage 🩸

imposter syndrome has been so bad lately but it's okay we ball

me everyday here: i need 2 draw... need to improve... need to draw more.... more ........

need 2 draw more

need 2 draw her soon.. once i finish this last piece and before next slots

i miss aza

taking the day off to relax.... i need to think about azakemi asphyxiation

today sucks i need big men in my vision immediately

all is right in the world

i've been picking up on this for a while and it's bothering me how two characters are treated very differently when it comes to interactions. in kinder words you will all face hell by my hands

*pieces gggh. not that i would put it above this fandom but whatever!!!! this is unrelated to art quality btw

trying not to be uber woke about stuff but i can tell some things about some piece of my work being perceived and it's very annoying to think about

age gap warrior

i sometimes see him so handsome which i like. but my favorite is. old man emet i think. very aged looking one. i usually don't draw him like that cause i prefer to stick to canon for work but i like imagining him looking quite aged

i like emet

god's perfect son vs the false prophet he protects and worships btw

going off track off of this. aza is very "biological" despite being closer to god in her faith while akemi is more "metaphysical" while being a nonbeliever. she's all human flesh and skin while he's pure light. these motifs matter to me

i often associate her with the color red/burgundy but in a very biological way. i think of the human body a lot when it comes to her. layers of muscles, organs, red blood and veins. she is very chemical and physical in a human way

#🐑 🩸🫀🥩🍒💉 the meat girl

i think it reminds me of drag a little. maybe..... like caricatures of human things that are stylized. there is a lot of fashion history vs feminism vs puritanical views that go into analyzing these things but i just think it's cunt sometimes

this is a personal view i can't really explain but i do like it all. i like the bug eyed sculpts, unrealistic body shapes and non-canon outfits. it's like looking at the mysterious bug to me, not in a condescending way

some are not the best design choices but that's only for me. even then. i don't know. it's kinda cunt

i love overly modded characters idk

is there such a thing ? there is... for me... doctor girl vs regenerative guy who can never die. he likes it when she touches his guts

ahhh azakemi organplay

i'm genuinely going a little crazy because i want to take time off to study but i have to work. but i also gotta improve. i wanna dig a hole

how do i unlock this bit of skill. i need new horizons

(ノ_<。) i have to get better at drawing

i wish all white people would shut up for a little bit

this place is not home but neither is there. there isn't a home, but you still crying watching movies in your native language and wish you could keep eating the dumplings your people make. and you feel those emotions while knowing your people does not accept or want you.

feeling like an alien both in the south and in the west has corroded away a lot of what makes myself a person, i think. your home is neither here or there, you grow up thinking you will find a location or a country where everything will be right but that place does not exist.