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@eljay.bsky.social

author of queer fiction. comms professional. currently in my gamer kid mid-life crisis. 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈 they/them | linktr.ee/mxeljay

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AHHHH IT'S OUT! IT'S OUT! Go play THE SPIRIT LIFT, everyone!!! I'm locked in to work, listening to the soundtrack as we speak. It's so good! 😍

27.01.2026 16:02 — 👍 3    🔁 2    💬 1    📌 0

HELL YEAH

26.01.2026 07:04 — 👍 2    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
Illustration of my oc, Stardust Boyfriend, in a flirtatious embrace with an astronaut. The astronaut is unzipping SDBF's bodysuit to expose his chest.

Illustration of my oc, Stardust Boyfriend, in a flirtatious embrace with an astronaut. The astronaut is unzipping SDBF's bodysuit to expose his chest.

🧑‍🚀💞🌟

14.01.2026 20:39 — 👍 368    🔁 115    💬 13    📌 0

Ahhhhh so hype for this!!!

14.01.2026 21:47 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

You will like my indie game if you played these games:

- Inscryption 💾
- Persona 3 🎧
- Zero Escape: Virtue's Last Reward ⌚
- Ring of Pain 🃏

We launch on Jan 27! store.steampowered.com/app/1727590/...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxTh...

#indiegame #gamedev #deckbuilder

14.01.2026 21:06 — 👍 25    🔁 10    💬 3    📌 3
Achilles and Patroclos, standing next to each other in front of a raging fire. Achilles is outfitted for battle and looks wistfully into the distance, while Patroclos ties some laces of his armor, also looking sad. Behind them and above there's the mosaic of a warrior in his chariot.

Achilles and Patroclos, standing next to each other in front of a raging fire. Achilles is outfitted for battle and looks wistfully into the distance, while Patroclos ties some laces of his armor, also looking sad. Behind them and above there's the mosaic of a warrior in his chariot.

My assignment for Winona Nelson's SmArtschool class: Choose a favorite book and illustrate a cover for it.

I picked "The Song of Achilles" by Madeline Miller, and my goal was to capture a similar bittersweet tone as the novel has.

10.01.2026 16:35 — 👍 2889    🔁 753    💬 53    📌 7
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reposting one of my fav works from this year :)

22.12.2025 14:05 — 👍 190    🔁 57    💬 4    📌 0
illustration of a catacomb saint standing on a pile of skulls
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#kimgakaku

illustration of a catacomb saint standing on a pile of skulls __ #kimgakaku

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24.11.2025 19:16 — 👍 8386    🔁 2280    💬 91    📌 16
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Enjoying the rain

21.12.2025 14:38 — 👍 496    🔁 163    💬 2    📌 0

The nice lady in the Publix deli called me to say, "sorry we have to cancel your order bc we don't actually have any turkeys or hams left" and I may have panicked a little lol 😀

21.12.2025 23:22 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

I have accomplished nothing I planned to accomplish today but finally, after finding out at the last minute that no one at home has any plans for Christmas dinner, that is at least sorted. 😅

21.12.2025 23:22 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0
Illustration in black, red, and green of Ansel as Kraumpus with a baseball bat covered in nails, and Ren in his basket with a sniper rifle and a war helmet covered in christmas decor.

Illustration in black, red, and green of Ansel as Kraumpus with a baseball bat covered in nails, and Ren in his basket with a sniper rifle and a war helmet covered in christmas decor.

happy holidaze from these two nutjobs

#TheTitan

21.12.2025 01:12 — 👍 155    🔁 46    💬 1    📌 0

Higher education was never in the cards for him, but he was a lifelong learner. Obsessed with science and technology. He built computers and loved setting up the telescope so we could watch meteor showers, eclipses, and all kinds of celestial events as a family. That was the best of him.

21.12.2025 20:34 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

🫂 It's not a fun club, but we're here for each other. Absolutely sending you my biggest hugs through this painful time, friend. I always take comfort in the idea that so long as we remember them, a part of them remains alive. And so I try my best to remember and honor the best parts of my dad.

21.12.2025 20:34 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Thank you so much! <3

21.12.2025 20:24 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

So, I thought my rosettes looked pretty okay and then I went on Pinterest and searched for "rosettes." ...I'll, uh... I'll be back in like six months after I git gud

21.12.2025 08:00 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
Text graphic reads: Today is the winter solstice. It also marks five years without my dad. My grief has been an odd and slowly emerging thing, in many ways, taking a while to fully settle in. I think losing someone at the height of COVID, before there were any vaccines even, is and will always be a uniquely strange experience. We almost didn't get to have a funeral for him, and the bare bones, short service we did have feels a bit like a dream in my memory. I barely know who was there, because we were sat at the front of the room and couldn't do a line to greet guests at the end because of social distancing restrictions. He was cremated, as he'd always said he wanted to be, so I never got to see him after his death. There was no viewing, no "saying goodbye." He was just gone. Today, five years later, he is still just gone, and I think a part of me is still waiting for him to come back.

We had a contentious relationship at times. I know he loved me, or at least he loved the person I was in his mind. I loved parts of him, but by the end of his life, we no longer really understood each other. 

What hurts the most about his loss is what we could have had, and never quite did. He didn't really see me, and maybe I couldn't really see him, either. We are, in many ways, almost painfully alike. My grief in his loss is as much for the love that we had but never got enough of, as it is for the love we might have had, but never quite found. 

I think I'll be mourning the loss of that potential, unrendered love for the rest of my life.

EV | 12/21/2025

Text graphic reads: Today is the winter solstice. It also marks five years without my dad. My grief has been an odd and slowly emerging thing, in many ways, taking a while to fully settle in. I think losing someone at the height of COVID, before there were any vaccines even, is and will always be a uniquely strange experience. We almost didn't get to have a funeral for him, and the bare bones, short service we did have feels a bit like a dream in my memory. I barely know who was there, because we were sat at the front of the room and couldn't do a line to greet guests at the end because of social distancing restrictions. He was cremated, as he'd always said he wanted to be, so I never got to see him after his death. There was no viewing, no "saying goodbye." He was just gone. Today, five years later, he is still just gone, and I think a part of me is still waiting for him to come back. We had a contentious relationship at times. I know he loved me, or at least he loved the person I was in his mind. I loved parts of him, but by the end of his life, we no longer really understood each other. What hurts the most about his loss is what we could have had, and never quite did. He didn't really see me, and maybe I couldn't really see him, either. We are, in many ways, almost painfully alike. My grief in his loss is as much for the love that we had but never got enough of, as it is for the love we might have had, but never quite found. I think I'll be mourning the loss of that potential, unrendered love for the rest of my life. EV | 12/21/2025

Today is the winter solstice. It also marks five years without my dad. My grief has been an odd and slowly emerging thing, in many ways, taking a while to fully settle in. I think losing someone at the height of COVID, before there were any vaccines even...

21.12.2025 07:50 — 👍 5    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Aw, thanks!! 💖

20.12.2025 07:14 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
A baby pink rosette made from velvet ribbon, pink gimp cord trim, and blue felting, with a gold heart cabochon frame at center

A baby pink rosette made from velvet ribbon, pink gimp cord trim, and blue felting, with a gold heart cabochon frame at center

I have a new hobby. Been making rosettes for a couple of months and I really need to stock up on findings and trims because I think I might be hooked and I want to make increasingly more elaborate designs.

20.12.2025 07:12 — 👍 4    🔁 0    💬 3    📌 0

This game is gonna fucking rock, please go check it out!

04.12.2025 20:40 — 👍 5    🔁 1    💬 0    📌 0

Y'all my amazingly talented friend Miko's game is releasing soon!!! Wishlist on Steam now and be sure to check out the game in January!

23.10.2025 20:12 — 👍 8    🔁 5    💬 1    📌 0

HELL YEAH! SO HYPE FOR THIS!!!

23.10.2025 20:09 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0
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went outside to put my welcome mat back in place but I actually can’t because there’s a very cute snail enjoying it just now, so

small joys

12.08.2025 18:59 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Obergefell v. Hodges made me believe in the whole "arc of history bends towards justice." In the 90s, I didn't think gay marriage would be legalized in my lifetime because homophobia was so deeply ingrained. We would have never gotten here without the decision and now it may be overturned.

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You found shelter from the rain, but it was already occupied.

original music and sfx by: zdraste_music

06.08.2025 15:47 — 👍 3287    🔁 538    💬 48    📌 10
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🗡️

27.07.2025 18:33 — 👍 964    🔁 256    💬 7    📌 0

Been struggling really hard with creative motivation lately, but I had a really great conversation with a fellow writer friend last night and that always builds me up again. I'll keep doing my best. <3

27.07.2025 17:07 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

100%

27.07.2025 17:05 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Update: I finally watched this last week and it's cute as hell!!!

24.07.2025 18:35 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

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