Darian

How I’m feeling

I got my booster today and am sick with a fever and aches already why must I be punished

I really do fw a pastry though if I’m honest

I hate being responsible what do you mean I was going to order KFC and now I’m making popcorn chicken myself

Today is a great day to send me $100.

celebrity crush got a hair cut and it’s doing things to me 🫣

I love watching people pile on to a bus when there’s another one in two minutes

If anyone wants to get rid of their money ahead of the rapture I take donations btw

when tomorrows open is 12 hours away and there STILL isn’t a schedule 🙃🙃🙃 so kind of the owner to be capable of posting the schedule in a timely fashion

Find someone who wants to be a husband, not just someone who wants a wife 😭😭😭😭

There’s a man on TikTok making recipe videos of his wife’s favourite meals bc he hates that there will be a time he can’t cook for her and wants her to always be able to eat his food??? Oh my god???

how many times a day can a girl cry over the job hunt before it just gets sad

I have to work today despite the owner retaliating against me for asking for my paystubs and firing a girl who asked for her pay check so you can imagine the kind of stress I’m under 🙃🙃🙃

Woke up from a panic attack at 3am and can’t go back to sleep because my heart feels like it’s going to explode 🥲 incredible

Having Thoughts™️

I took an edible y’all and something is going on in my brain now

Love when the owner doesn’t pay half our staff, won’t pay suppliers, and we’re running out of product and we have no managers so for some reason it’s my fucking problem at minimum wage!!!!! Amazing!!!! Fucking incredible!!!!

If I throw up one more time from anxiety today I’m gonna lose it!!! Working on an internship application and trying to get more job applications out and it is a STRUGGLE when I’m constantly having panic attacks and throwing up 🙃

went in to work. Line was empty. No pre-rolls done. Not enough crepes for the week. Within ten minutes, two sandwiches and four crepes. Whip cream explodes. I burn a crepe. Go into hysterics, sit on the floor sobbing fifty minutes of dissociating. New record????

The sink at work physically exploded at me today so if you need me I’ll be sobbing in the corner

Having unspeakable thoughts about how this will look

I love violent nausea and a fever bc of a toxic work environment 🫶🏻 let’s see what passive aggressive and mean behaviour I’m going to have to be around today!

I’m gonna have to come up with a romance novel for it ig

Had a dream last night about experiencing a reciprocated intense love and woke up with an empty feeling in my chest, you know what that means

but then there’s this big dark cloud looming because of a job that makes me miserable and gives me panic attacks and makes me throw up from anxiety and that just feels so unfair

I’m swimming and eating good food and attending book launches and walking in the sun and writing and playing D&D with friends and getting ice cream and gossiping over drinks and seeing live music and doing therapy to get better and taking medication that makes me feel closer to me

Work is so awful and it’s such a weird contrast to a life that feels so beautiful and full otherwise

Screamed so loud of the balcony today (twice) that I hurt my throat. That kind of shift ig.

when that 7shifts notification comes in that your shift starts soon and you just start crying from the anxiety 🤩 amazing

Petition for bookshops to have a writer-in-residence position. The writer will write near the books, give at least one writing workshop, and tell the books they are good if they look lonely.