Xusder is "Red Sux" backwards...🐀

Haven’t posted or read skeets in like months. Just wanted to take a break away from social media for a bit, haha!

Lol, I just had to waste a CO2 cartridge. Also, I have no actual ammo (will buy some paintballs later), so don’t worry about me firing this thing off indoors.

Shit. Decided to treat myself with another purchase. Umarex H&K VP9. Basically a .43 caliber CO2 paintball marker. I wanted the Glock, but it was too expensive at $400! Also I’m stupid and I love H&K guns (one day I will own a real steel USP)…

I wonder of there’s a parallel universe version of me that’s Canadian. Like if my parents immigrated to Canada instead of the US.

I wonder how different they are to me, haha.

I gotta say, going to Haverstraw is nice, especially when you’re on the cliff road driving north towards the town.

It might be boring and stupid for a lot of people, but when I suddenly see the Hudson River spanning the horizon, it’s pretty beautiful.

Finally done with the repairs and inspection for the car. Managed to haggle the price down to $200.

At least I still have one Benjamin…

Goddamnit. $300 down the drain. Car needs fixing because we failed the inspection. Fuck, I’m running out of money.

Damn it…

Damn, that Gene Hackman situation. Man, that’s gonna be us millenials in the future. No one to take care of us, no nursing homes, just dementia and pain.

Well, for most people, I guess. I’m not gonna be around that long, unless I get a bionic kidney that doesn’t fail, haha!

Lol. Elon thought he was gonna use Trump. But it turns out Trump destroys everything he touches.

Fucking win-win…

Slava Ukrainí 🇺🇦

Man, for those people who hate the US, they must love what’s happening to this country right now.

Stupid orange turd…

Acceptance letter for getting on the Columbia/New York Presbyterian kidney transplant list.

Fuck yeah! Some modicum of good news in a world of bad.

Now all I gotta do is survive for 3 or 4 years of Trumpmerica. Shit…

Also RIP Michelle Trachtenberg

Recent news got me thinkin’ maybe I should write up a living will?

You never know…

R.I.P. Monolith Productions
1994-2025

Damn, I hate it when I have too much liquid in my body. A little over the 1 liter mark and it feels like something’s squeezing my heart.

Whoever gets to make the next Bond film has the opportunity to do something funny.

Maybe make the villain a billionaire that controls a major corporation that everyone uses and relies on whose name kinda sounds like “Beff Jesos”…

Mapquest name your own “Gulf Of”creator showing the Gulf of Mexico with part of the famous “Navy Seal” copypasta replacing the name.

I just had to.

37 years. How the fuck have I made it this far?

It’s not my birthday yet (later this month), but just thinking about it…I’m still amazed I’ve lasted this long.

I’m probably not gonna get to 60s, but you never know what will happen, haha!

Man, I wish I was a funny. Then I could say hilarious quips to soothe my broken spirit while the world around me burns.

Early birthday present. No, it’s not real (it’s a pellet gun). Lord knows how expensive a real single action army is, I could never afford a real one.

Stupid thought:

When I was living in Las Vegas in 2016, guess who won?

Then when I was out of the country in 2020, Biden won.

Now I’m back in the US in 2025, and guess who won again!?

Maybe I should have been out of the States during the election…

Just got a call from my transplant coordinator. I’ve been finally approved and will get on the transplant list soon!

Some good news for once. Hopefully, the world hasn’t ended in about 3 to 4 years and maybe I can get a new kidney, haha!

I wish Agent 47 was real…

Just a random thought.

“Happy Birthday, Pa! You still dead?”

Haha, you would have laughed at that. I love you dad!

During Covid, I got my schadenfreude hit by reading r/HermanCainAward.

Nowadays, the schadenfreude juice comes from reading r/LeopardsAteMyFace, haha!

I’m hearing talks from people I know about prepping for the world’s end.

Funny, when you know that you’d be one of the first ones to perish in the apocalypse (due to my ESRD), preparing for the end of the world isn’t really worth it, haha!

At least I got my lab results back. Everything is good: Phosphorus, calcium, A1C, etc.

Just had too much fluids over the new year. Of course had to enjoy myself before the Orange turd spread his shit everywhere, haha.

Trying to keep myself healthy, but worried about the future…

Lol, Medicaid portals currently frozen in all 50 states.

This is gonna be the hardest 4 years. Fuck…

I better get my affairs in order. There’s no way I’ll be alive to see 2028.

And then the new administration will probably deport me after revoking my naturalization. Well, at least then I can die in my homeland at that point. Probably better than dying in America, at least they’ll bury me next to my father over there, haha!