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framework 12? or an older 13 model

may cost slightly more than a thinkpad but you can guarantee that you'll be able to replace the battery on it instead of buying second laptop

i will always love all that old shit and i'm glad i don't need half a bottle of wine and a constant loop of bubblegum pop in my ears to get through each night anymore! but i have no idea what's next for me, what else i might like, who i am besides that crushed dysphoric idiot

every time i dig up formative anime series i am hit in the face with it being just straight up dysphoria fic or wish fulfilment or allegory. i am still not done identifying exactly how much of my personality was just a workaround

the quiet on american holidays is so relaxing. peak time to be having a normal day off

love too do exactly what everyone says not to do (live in between genders for many years and piss everybody off waiting for hrt to kill the brainworms)

maybe my parents know? what the fuck am i doing lol

i cannot believe everyone let me walk around like that for so long when they fucking knew. what the fuck!

i've been TSA groped like three times going back 2-3 years, all at seatac. TIL what the groper being a woman each time meant. god dambn

i bought a whole bread loaf but i'm alone i only need half loaf. why did i buy full loaf

there is still time

i finished the sopranos for the first time yesterday and now i... miss... tony soprano?

making me too aware of my cuticles

TIL you wear gloves to cut habaneros

agriculture are so fucking good and are getting even better every time i catch them!!

all the tracks from the first album fucking rip, the back end of relier made me cry

also the weight

i made it to the show alone and felt fine and i was feeling good enough to walk back to muni in a pack of others and nothing happened yay

i think i am ok going to green apple books the balboa and the roxie alone in the dark and that might be it right now. panda express sometimes. i did go to safeway last night, that was ok

partner is out of town and i am low key scared to go out alone at night to anywhere worth going, i haven't done it much since i got followed and harassed a while back. but i got tickets and i gotta get some reps in so i am going to the fucking show

its fucking cool to watch a movie 20 times, raea. you're doing the right thing

parasocial i guess but i just think she deserves to see her fans looking after themselves, tits getting bigger each time they come to town, etc

my face is retinol purging rn and leah agriculture is going to see :(

they're getting pretty "good" jobs doing this! like director level shit at known firms just saying "outsourcing your reasoning facilities to a roulette wheel is a great idea and definitely not harder than doing it normal style"

and yes you seemed to find the normal style pretty hard, so

"ai" for software development is just three cueing as a service and for some fellas - particularly those being dragged by their ankles through every work or school task by others - that's indistinguishable from what they were already doing. magic!

its crazy seeing the most dogshit guys i've ever worked or studied near _all_ becoming "ai" investors, consultants, or advisors for big consultants at the same time. literally everyone who struggled to complete basic programming tasks

the hard part is having any creativity available when i'm both tired and frantically ruminating about something else

how can i relate to the inner life of a bird with enough detail to pay respects to the bird and its world

learned a new sleep trick where you try to engage creativity to break a thought or song loop - "imagine day to day life if you were a bird" etc. then you KO. and let me tell ya - it sorta works

hidetora :(

ever since I learned about three-cueing I've developed infinitely more patience for replies on social media. mfers literally do not know how to read. people are walking around conjuring random meanings into words they don't know, and they don't know a lot of words. it's crazy

get me clipped up in the air like this

i don't think i can own a car without airbags that feels like a dumb way to get maimed