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i’m cooked

today was bad until it wasn’t

it’s fun not having my gf follow this account so i know no one will be holding me accountable for hurting myself over and over again

yeag just fucking explode me

strangely calm as i probably just finished ruining my chance at getting out of this place. maybe now i can finally convince myself to stop being such a pussy

long sleeves for a while
that’s for fucking sure

i’m gonna end up losing her too

i’m so fucking stupdi

once again self sabotaging

truly i am insufferable

funny how things change.

here’s hoping i don’t k*** ****** before i can move in with my gf

i’m such a piece of shit actually

it feels like this will never fucking end

i am nothing i am no one and everything isn’t real

straight from being depressed to blissed out thinking about how good it felt to fuck her the last morning i was there.. really experiencing the full spectrum of emotions

small and vulnerable

wtf did i do.

oh so i’m like actually not ok cool.

any time i think about how it feels to bleed my body tenses up until i twitch

the twitching got worse again.

why do i get hard when i make myself bleed

0 days clean feels awful but amazing somehow

crazy how not eating actually helped me lose weight and i feel prettier now. when she held me i fit so nicely in her arms since im small now…

i’m disposable..

i’m even worse than when i left. somehow i didn’t think that was a reality i would have to live in

this account has a permanent trigger warning on it from now on, don’t read my page unless you want to be flashbanged by my self harm posting