zack

got hit with the trans beam. lowkey the worst thing to ever happen

I miss Amanda

my binder makes me sweat like i’m in hell

i use this account to tweet about one thing lmao

they should make a binder that you can wear at home

need to start practicing for FM

a binder’s goal is to squash you. what a sad thing to have your inanimate life dedicated to

had crazy dysphoria today. but i still had a good time

i gotta start hard core working out. don’t ask me about shit else besides doing my exams and working out for the next year

fight back

wearing a binder is insane. my back hurts man

i don’t trust myself. hmm

i really do think i could get him to send my CV to his colleagues in Canada. and for him to hype me up for a job. i can’t believe time and time again i choose to be in a place that makes me unhappy. i really could just leave if im not getting paid. and get a job in Canada on my one merit. maybe

and i’ll get paid eventually, so maybe this is a gamble i should take?

the gamble i’m taking, is that he’ll like me enough to want to send my CV to the people in his Canadian network after i’m done working for him

the real question is if i’m willing to accept working for four more months without being paid anything

i got my degree, is a not so good gpa. i got this job, that may have nothing to do with my field. and im not getting paid for a few months, as far as i know. i just feel upset all the time. anyways. going to do an exam in october. hopefully i pass

i wish i didn’t feel so unaccomplished

relieved to know everyone performs like shit at their first attempt of their first SOA exam

i hope i get to do more interesting work soon. i feel like im falling behind

and to be so incredibly competent. again i’m average…

there’s so much pressure to be a genius. i’m just average or a bit below. i am frustrated

patience zack, patience

we will see what happens at the end of July baby. i won’t be getting fucking shit lmao

boss just asked what i’ve been doing for the past two days. broo you aren’t paying me brooo

just feeling an anxious feeling in my chest. hoping ice cream helps

i should blow half of my allowance on vegan ice cream, shouldn’t i?

i didn’t study for it to be fair. but wow. it’s hard not to feel like shit. i need to get back into my own academic good graces

i scored a 00 on my SOA FM exam

it was Coherence