Liminal Warmth ❤️‍🔥

Saavik, Capt. Bateson, Horny Alien Nurse, Capt. Janeway, and Data

Cheers was a holodeck program. 😉

I'm mad that Twitter keeps yanking me back bc it's where my friends are saying things

Today I had a fire to put out at work and I was so very happy that I had something meaningful to do

No idea but that scene allegedly has heavy LDS ties so maybe not terribly surprising

okay but...

I used to have a phone shortcut for an ASCII shrug but for the last few years I just end up googling "shruggie" whenever I need it and plaintext-pasting from the Atlantic title article about it

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I'm really just here to make things easier for you, personally, Loopy

always has be--

wow this image takes me back

You dropped an "A", bud... let me help you with those esthetics

Like... we have no idea how many blow-up fights or rough nights or hurt feelings have come up for that couple around this and maybe if they have system that works to manage that, no further judgment needed?

bleh¯\_(ツ)_/¯

My take on the whole recent Oppenheimer porn tiktok drama is that if people have privately struggled with porn being a problem in their relationship and they found a way to manage it that works for them as a couple, good for them?

And that's about all that needs to be said

I did too! the writing is much better

I mean it still has a lot of sex and action

but also good writing

Carnival Row is so much better than I ever expected from a "steampunk-flavored show about Faeries"

Orlando killin' it--the drama and writing are great, also significantly more mature, serious, and darker than anticipated

What's punishing is that I have A-List so I'm not only forced to watch this multiple times per month, but I will now also be forced to think of the cave analogy every time

feature

you have to fully embrace it unselfconsciously in understated ways that don't make it your whole identity to be able to loop back around as an integrated part of an overall persona

How nerdy is it to put a sharp-edged fantasy knife replica in my kitchen just to cut cheese and maybe vegetables with

11/ This is mostly complaining, which I feel awkward about.

I will eventually do something about this or something will change.

But... sigh. I just want to feel productively distracted right now with something helpful for our business's bottom line.

10/ In some ways, not having enough to do even 4 months after mom passed is almost _harder_ than if I was really busy with work.

I have way too much time to reflect rn. But not enough focus/energy to productively invest in starting up something new. I do feel obligated to be _available_ to work.

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ahhh good thank you

9/ Frustrated.

I wish I could either figure out something to write or do on my own time that I really believed in (which is cruxy/stuckness for my personal projects since mom got sick and died), or could get a formal assignment through work.

Arrgh.

8/ I do like and trust my management; I believe them when they say stuff is coming and the timing is uncertain. I know why it's taking a while and can see that I'm not the only one in this position.

I just want to be building again, though.

7/ In the meantime, I don't know what to do with myself in this weird limbo of employed but without any strong focus or project area and unable to get myself to a place where I can focus enough on something else to engage with it.

I don't like it, not comfy. Not sure what move to make.

6/ In an ideal world, work would get much busier and I'd get to go build stuff with a team like I wanted when I took this job... I've been patiently waiting and champing at the bit for months on that. But no clue when it's going to happen.

This is what I want.

5/ So I'm in this position where I don't feel like I can start something new, don't really want to look for a new job, don't feel focused/motivated enough to solve the writing problem, and don't know how to get myself unstuck.

4/ But it is frustrating bc I took this job in the first place so I could build things with a team, and I am very much not able to build right now for complicated resourcing reasons--no team yet, no team in sight. :/

I'm doing good R&D work, but kinda in a vacuum.

3/ Unfortunately, writing is one of my primary outlets for both business ideas and blowing off steam.

This is compounded by a somewhat frustrating work situation.

I am comfortably employed and grateful to be employed rn. I am also wildly under-utilized atm. Can't expand while staying anon.