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π³οΈββ§οΈ She/her π Married π¦ Peacock bitch π Repost-heavy π Some NSFW (reposts may be untagged) ββΌββββ A place to yap about my personal life and creative pursuits, outside of That One MMO that I play.
"I am a dark red liver stretched out on the rocks,
All the poison, I convert it and I turn it to love"
It's so cool how a bunch of kids realized there was a genocide in the middle east in 2023 and now suddenly every major company and government is tripping over their own dicks to turn the world into an Orwllian surveillance state so that never happens again.
09.02.2026 22:13 β π 5443 π 2151 π¬ 21 π 15I really should get back to making levels for old Doom engine games. I never did finish any, and I'm sure I'd have a lot of fun designing setpieces in these games nowadays.
this is the last one i was working on, looks like around november 2024. not surprised i fell off around that time...
anyways, don't get off discord yet; not because this isn't heinous but because we're currently in the post-horror scramble to find alternatives. give things a second to settle down so you can find out which ones suck and which ones don't. instead, cancel your nitro, yell at discord, and plan.
09.02.2026 18:38 β π 2233 π 1125 π¬ 18 π 5Line drawing: a very rotund mourning dove perching on a wire.
31.01.2026 04:12 β π 1780 π 567 π¬ 16 π 7it drives you insane how much erosion of freedom is justified by concern for kids when the people who actually hurt them will never face consequences
09.02.2026 14:42 β π 11492 π 4957 π¬ 37 π 46oh we're just taking cues from comcast on how to handle cancellation eh
09.02.2026 16:40 β π 1 π 0 π¬ 0 π 0lmao as if i give a shit about a badge i never saw
09.02.2026 16:39 β π 1 π 0 π¬ 1 π 0While daydreaming, I thought of a random scenario involving a fictional MMO and a character in it. Only a minute after thinking this up, the story now has a big bad that ties into the weakness of the protagonist and themes of loss and control
I will never have enough time for all the ideas I have π
thank the gods that i have physical therapy scheduled this month because i'm getting really tired of this leg stopping me from doing things
08.02.2026 02:16 β π 3 π 1 π¬ 0 π 0Railanor π€ #γ¦γγ³γΌγ³γͺγΌγγΌγγΌγ
07.02.2026 20:00 β π 3933 π 770 π¬ 23 π 3The February pack is up for grabs! β¨
I just finished getting the page ready. There are 18 image variants in total this month!
I'm still sharing ALL my art here, just not the spicy versions.
(www.patreon.com/Yllande)
Some of us even fight against it like Roxas does when talking to NaminΓ©. No way I'm trans; I KNOW who I am, I've lived my life for three decades!
But no matter how hard we run, we can't escape the inevitable truth. Our hearts won't let us lie to ourselves anymore. Summer vacation is finally over.
like but seriously, is Roxas' experience not the trans experience? You wander through life, absolutely sure that something is just *off*, like you're not whole. And more things from this "other side" leak in, you feel more and more like another person.
Until you wake up one day, and you are.
my cozy game is the prologue of kingdom hearts 2
06.02.2026 17:52 β π 1 π 0 π¬ 1 π 0oh. oh no. i'm in DANGER
05.02.2026 18:45 β π 0 π 0 π¬ 0 π 0ALSO also I want to share a piece of criticism of cozy I do really like, partly because it focuses on on specific trends and plot points in specific books (and a specific niche, cozy witch books, at that) where I often see a lot of critics get hung up on the descriptor "cozy" in a very abstract way
05.02.2026 17:41 β π 26 π 6 π¬ 0 π 1not that OP is wrong, i agree with them. but i guess i hope my fellow neurospicy folks know that sometimes the other party won't *want* to make things right, no matter how well-meaning you are.
05.02.2026 04:35 β π 2 π 0 π¬ 0 π 0lrp β unfortunately, sometimes it doesn't matter if you try to make things right. sometimes, you know you're a burden and instead you just bottle it all up and try so hard not to let the cracks show. and when they do, they dump you anyway, even if you reshape your entire self to accommodate them.
05.02.2026 04:29 β π 1 π 0 π¬ 1 π 0If you do something wrong, your mental illness is not an excuse. That doesnβt mean you had control over it or that itβs not an explanation for your actions, but it doesnβt exempt you from consequences or a need to reflect/apologize.
Itβs not fun, but if thereβs a way you can fix things, you should.
oh this is so extra i need it
05.02.2026 03:49 β π 1 π 0 π¬ 1 π 0hi. i made a "quick" video on how to make & use a LUT for your presets!
a good chunk of it is me "explaining" how to use adjustments for ppl who are unfamiliar with photo editing. u can go ahead and skip all that if u know what's up or don't care.
subtitles also included [:
youtu.be/VSjt89DeYc4
lrp β me in an alternate timeline where i didn't meet michelle and was still single
05.02.2026 01:44 β π 0 π 0 π¬ 0 π 0well. and cassius is there too i guess
04.02.2026 22:53 β π 4 π 0 π¬ 0 π 0The best part of making mods for that one MMO I play is that it usually means I'm spending a blissful amount of time staring at hot naked women
04.02.2026 22:53 β π 3 π 0 π¬ 1 π 0streaming your game for someone is a form of intimacy
04.02.2026 02:13 β π 761 π 234 π¬ 16 π 25CM for xen_194 π #FFXIV
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