deep rest

*dog sigh*

What does it say when my body is interrupting my wet dreams to have Sylus be like "hey why are you in pain"

I think it's a mix of pain and residual primal terror from Sunday

People are kind and I love them, but I'm begging you to not perceive me

I wish I could stop crying today lmao

I was mostly saying it just to torment Rynn but I didn't realize it bugged you, I'm really sorry 😭

I'll stop using it

Or ever actually lmao

I don't want to get out of bed today

Oh it's bad today

Sigh

Cuz what it boils down to is like, I ask what I'm doing wrong or if I'm doing something hurtful and it comes down to "you're too loud"

Brain torn between "okay maybe you should be loud too then?" and "fine I should shut up so people don't think I'm trying to talk over them"

I really hate the generalized assumption that me being loud about a ship is perceived as me trying to talk over people or monopolize on a ship, cuz it just like, It Keeps Happening

No matter how much I try to encourage other people with same chars, someone just Always Gets That Impression Of Me

Truly I should use this account more

But also I'm like as unhinged on main as I would be here (sexually, anyway) so I would mostly come over here to vomit out depressed thoughts and I don't wanna worry people over literally nothing

↪️Hmmm...↩️

I could cause Such A Family Incident right now if I had the spoons for it

And like I said it's not fucking fair to the people who put genuine effort in to make me feel like a person and not just an entity or a means to an end but fucking hell I wish I knew why I couldn't accept it

I try to, but nothing works and it just makes me draw back more and more and more

Fumbling social interactions where I can physically see the sims friendship down thing pop up on my brain screen on the daily and it's like ah well fuck me I fucking hate myself and I hate that I'm like this

Legit I wish I could jusy fucking not care about being near people but I'm too people needy

One of those nights where I'm feeling insurmountably unlovable and my heart hurts

And like I don't wanna tell anyone that bc then if they try to express that they care (they do. Deeo down, I know they do) my brain in this state Will Not Accept It and that's not fair to the people who are genuine

Brain in The Bad Place and The Thoughts are winning

mating press

Like I am crawling out of my fuckign skin

Spring heat is BAD this year holy fuck

Horny Friday

I should've posted that on this one, huh

"Why the censors" I don't want a bunch of people who don't know me following this account when I can't force them to unfollow even through soft blocking tbh so I'm trying to keep it lowkey

I'm not going all out on this account until we get privs but

Is this where I can finally talk about Rry diving headfirst into A*lus's crotch to huff him