how do you handle going to the doctor

men are scary

i’m so autistic

i’m a mess mess mess mess mess mess mess mess

i’m too depressed for anything right now

i haven’t eaten and i almost look skinny today, maybe i should starve more

i was going to eat today but slept through lunch and got very anxious over leaving my room to get dinner, my doctor would kill me

i don’t understand how anyone manages to go to classes on less than 4 hours of sleep without caffeine, i’m literally passing out

should i post pics

*slice* *slice* *slice*

sleeping for 4 hours on average and hating myself! 😁

i want to be stabbed so badly, maybe by everyone who hates me, i deserve it so much

stupid horrible ugly annoying burdening lazy ungrateful mean rude fake alien insane crazy liar undeserving weak pitiful underweight awkward

biting is kinda underrated

bleh

i said so many dumb things like aaaa i want to punch myself

i’m so pathetic

my heart hurts i’m probably super annoying to them part of me wants to run back to the people who were abusive

sometimes people tell me not to worry and i just think to myself ‘how’

every day i mess something up

i’m never like satisfied unless it bleeds while doing it so like still babies but more likely to leave a scar or be a styro

i thought i was supposed to be mature when i turned 18, now much later still haven’t made any progress apparently!

i said weird things to my friend again aaaaaaaa

i’ve been pacing so much it’s so weird

are my friends are asleep 😞

he canceled his stream too so no comfort for me today

idk why my friend like me im always so annoying and needy

why is my mood so bad rn feel like everything is horrible

relapsed 😣

why did i spend like an hour scrolling bluesky sh