クリスタル 𓆩♡𓆪

i wish, just for once, to be able to cry in someones arms instead of being the one that holds others

i got mental issues
always fucking miss you

i don’t have obsession “problems”, i’m actually very good at it :D #obslove #yansky

#obslove #subsky #subtwt

i did this to myself it was my fault from the start

maybe if i had a normal child hood i wouldnt be this fucked up or maybe I was like this already why do i feel nothing but wverything at once why do i hate people bur love them why do i think why do i have to have a family why cant i just die its tiring everything is and i want to go home but if home

and i don't want your pity, i just want somebody near me.

the thing i will never admit is how desperately i want to be loved, i don't think i could say it. how i want someone to hold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me and want me, i want to be wanted and i don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted

i begged God to make the little girl inside me happy, please take away all the pain and make the little girl happy. she's just a little girl hugging her own wounds.

#jiraisky im always fighting the demons

i hate how i look, i hate how i act, i hate how i talk, i hate everything about myself, i hate how im so sensitive to everything, i hate how i can love someone just as fast as i can hate them, i don’t know what to do with myself anymore. everything just feels like too much for me

im just sitting here and i have that feeling of wanting to cry but not being able to. i fucking hate it

Im broke miku 🥀🥀

Ame from NSO made me genuinely feel seen from how relatable she is to me 🥲

just wan this time :3
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oh to go back to 2018 when deltarune first came out and i was obsessed with it along with one of my best friends in middle school 🥀

me i fear

she very much gives me impulsive/emotional borderline, like i know it isn’t confirmed or anything but ive just always really resonated with her since deltarune first came out 💔

i fucking love susie shes just like me fr 😭

#oc

i still have 8 1/2 hrs of this shit AAUHGHHS

i am literally on the verge of tears rn and i dont even know why bruh im gonna crash out

idk if i can stay the whole day but i’ll feel bad if i just leave 😭

i would genuinely rather take any retail job over this oml

i genuinely might just…. not come back to this job tomorrow tbh bc this is way too much for me, i literally dont know anyone here and theres language barriers with a lot of the people here, which wouldnt be a problem if i wasn’t completely inexperienced, as well as the fact its a 12 hr shift 😭

I'm so fucking stupid. You never cared about me

im realizing that might a trauma response…. cuz i was never allowed to talk back when my dad was yelling at me haha…. so i know “when to shut up” in situations where im emotional….. 😭

i say “pretty good control” vaguely, cuz while i can stop myself from saying anything in a heated situation, (biting my tongue) i still dont have a lot of “control” over them per say….. more like i can keep quiet, but the emotions still end up taking over my head and thoughts in the moment lmao