♡𝐃𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐲⛧ (edtwt/edsky) (relapse era)

My mental health is in the gutter I want to kill myself I can't even starve myself right

B/p era and restriction era and maybe soon diet pill era I'm skinnymaxxing

Just b/p'd everything I wanted to eat and I got up everything that I ate that wasn't super super low cal I feel so good

I weigh 114.6lbs as of this morning

I've been under 900cals for 4 days without a single serious binge urge even while stoned out of my mind watching Cheech and chong I've been listening to the manic street preachers and walking so much I've lost 6lbs (I was 120 yikes) and I'm so ready to be skinny again I don't even want to eat ngl

Update. I've been using the website on my laptop 😭

Good morning edsky I'm about to try duck eggs (they're from my grandma's pet ducks) in my sandwich I hope this is good

I'm so tired of living this way I miss being skinny and I sure as hell miss feeling alive why does my life suck so much why can't I stay close with anybody why do my friends only try to help out of obligation not out of sincere care I'm so tired

Do any of you guys want my insta I'm not putting it on here publicly but I need more ppl to talk to Abt my ED, the few ppl I could tell Abt my struggles have all recovered and I can't talk abt struggling without being triggering so

I'm not fucking eating today i stfg

I miss og edtwt but I'm never hopping on x again. May just turn one of my old phones into an ED phone so I can have it on there and not my main phone but like. Whyyy would I do that lol I hate the platform I just miss my ed'd friends

I want to sh again I miss being in pain I deserve it bc I'm so fucking insufferable

I just want to be loved and cared for, just by one person in my life please

And even my online friends are becoming less and less available I feel like I'm annoying them into leaving me because everyone leaves me so I want to cling to them but it always pushes people away more and it's like the more I be myself the less people like me (2)

I hate being me I hate that nobody is consistently here for me because I have no social skills because I was homeschooled and socially isolated and abused so I'm still on the same social level as a kid but I can't practice and get better cuz nobody wants to be around me (1)

Y'all. I had to buy a new skirt cuz I keep binging and I wanted to dress fem but my favorite crop top is getting too tight too I'm going to shoot myself I'm never eating again

HOLY SHIT I DISAPPEARED MY BAD GUYS
I was binging like mad but I've been doing better I hope I stick w it

I need to weigh myself but I'm lowkey scared to I think I will soon and then I will eat but I wanna smoke weed first

Sorry I disappeared y'all I had a busy few days

I try to be active but wtf am I supposed to be active for when nobody else is online 💀

Gonna omad every day of my period this honeymoon phase is honeymooning

I'm so hungry but I don't feel like eating I'm exhausted

I love blocking ppl I find annoying on here

Fruit juice my beloved my wonderful guilt-free sweet treat I could never count your cals fruit juice I love u ❣️

if you're trans and/or chronically ill there's like a 99% chance you are actually more knowledgeable than your doctor

I miss how active and interactive edtwt was why r so many ppl on here so boring 💔💔

Been very hydrated w water today, electrolytes always make me feel more thirsty and more dehydrated unless i'm like 2 days into a fast idk why 💔

I honestly look a little smaller at my cw than I did when I was this weight the last time so I think i've gained some muscle 🫣

Anorexic shark coochie board
(Except it's on a paper plate cuz I'm poor)

Bro I get it I was binging for most of winter and all of spring 😭💔