Nyxie Huitsing

I've been noticing the places that will soon be empty.
#grief #bestfriendshavepaws

Never before thought of vocalizing as a part of my masking, but it definitely is. My brain deeply believes that if I can articulate something well enough it is real and I will be seen and feel connection.
It works with other ND folx.

#audhdmusings
#ndbrain
#ndsocializing

A sleepy Rosie face on the arm of the blue sofa, he nose turned towards the camera, paws peeking out from beneath her head.

#bestfriendshavepaws

Hard decisions today.

This is a tipping point
Here we are at a worn out joint
The gate swings shut between our steps
Merging paths divide again
The bitter path of bosom friends

#bestfriwndshavepaws #grief #poetry #equinox

Sybil, a tabby cat sleeps with her face partially smoothed into a blue couch with warm lamplight glowing behind her.

There isn't much as heart warming as being safe enough for a cat to sleep beside. Sybil wasn't supposed to feel comfortable in our house. We were told she wouldn't get along with dogs, or enjoy a multi animal household, but this tabby proved them all wrong.
#recuecats #catsofbluesky #catnap

Yeah. I'm cycling between inwardly rejoicing that he can't spew his rhetoric anymore, and feeling shame over being ' no better than them' and despair over how many people his death has radicalized to the right.
It's really not for much to do with the man himself he's gone. The end.

A front leg in black, tan and white ending in a paw on dark earth with straw and grass. A yellow leash trails in the foreground.

In dog news however; Today I Learned Rosie stress digs.
Honestly, I'd rather that than a lot of other options. #dogsofbluesky #recuedogs #olddog

What isn't said here is that he was counting on those deaths to be mostly black, brown and queer folks.

Charlie Kirk is dead.
This is a fact.
I don't know how to feel about it.
Also a fact.
I want to be better than what I left behind.
I want to believe every human is worthy of empathy.

But when you preach against rights for marginalized peoples and defend violence against them.

You forfeit.

Fact.

On our way to work this morning a hot air balloon looked like it was going to land by our house, and it hit me how violently different my reaction is to that circumstance from what almost everyone I know would expect it to be.
I don't care. Get your big hot sweaty thing away from me.
#audhd #ndbrain

Grey and green stripes of garter stitch knitting in cool light.

Just feeling the cozy vibes of a chilly day combining my own and my Oma's handspun into a scarf/hood situation. The grey is Wensleydale lambswool blended with Merino and the green is my Oma's handspun, unknown fibre. The squish is intense #showmeyourknits #blueskyknitters #handspinners #handcrafter

A small journal with a mosaic cover featuring floral motifs in black, gold, ochre and red sits on a wooden picnic table

An open book showing small hand written text in black ink. The focus is on the pen slanted towards the camera.

Creative expression for its own sake.
I started a journaling RPG I've been designing.
Chiya is an Acolyte sent on an Initiation Task to find a sacred cave lost to time and retrieve any writings they find.

On a soft teal background sits a painted fox, upright and slightly snooty. His lines are sleek, white chin and tail bright against the brown-red of his fur. His eye visible to the viewer is closed.

Sometimes it's good to just get all the painting stuff out and paint a little fox. Only, don't tell him he's little, he is very proud of himself, and thinks he is quite the distinguished vulpine.

Yes! Students often have profound insights into the illustrations and I love talking with them about what they see in the art.

As an autistic person, days when I am not required to be perceived by people who I have to mask around are mandatory.
I suffer when I don't get them.
Having our roof redone is great, and necessary, but I just want to hide.
#autistic #hiding #masking #demandavoidance

Nyxie, a white person wearing black frames glasses and a black t shirt stares into the camera in front of trees and a grey sky.

Freshly blackened hairs make all the difference to my confidence. Hello sunshine, you are lovely today.

It makes me happy that Boromir's hero worship of Isildur and Narsil is a sign of his flaws.

Chapters(Indigo) 2001 had little tvs playing the chase to Brandywine Bridge. I must have watched it a dozen times in the store.
First part of the movie I ever saw.
Also, why are Saruman's stained glass windows purple and green?
(We know he's evil)

Bilbo's hunching over the ring as his reaction begins is a great foreshadowing to the Gollum of it all

Honestly, Bilbo's urge to use the ring to not be perceived is the most relatable part of his character for me.

The collaboration between Howard Shore and Peter Jackson on the scoring of this movie shaped my love of music.
They use silence as part of the rhythm of the music.
Example: Bilbo in his chair, opening and beginning to write Concerning Hobbits.
End of Prologue-silence-Music

In need of joy and nerding out today. So I'm watching LOTR extended, of course.
Movie
Extras
Movie
Extras
Movie
Extras
I am 11-13 years old again.💚
#lotr #extendedmovies #nerdlife

Random student quotes to brighten your day.
"Does anybody even care that I'm dead?" A student who just randomly lay down on the floor.
"What a letdown!" Spoken in a cheerful, singsong tone.
"DnD is the best way to learn French."

A page from The Creative Act:A Way of Being by Rick Rubin with the words, "Living in discovery is at all times preferable to living through assumptions."

I'm changing the rules.
8&9/100 Days of Knitting. I need to stash down before building my stash up again with Your de Fleece.
#changetherules #knitting #spinning #artist

Nyxie holds up a glass of whiskey to the window. The glass has patterns of diamonds, the whiskey is a light gold, and the landscape behind is muted green and grey.

To the person who taught me to think for myself, to discuss spiritual theology and dogma, and who never quit engaging with me even after our paths diverged. Go well. Your truth brought you peace, may it ever be so. #death #grief #grandparentloss #opa #gonenotforgotten

A full bobbin of yarn! All shades of pink, peach, purple and lavender.

6&7/100 Days of Spinning
Oh the hyperfocus kicked in!
Spun the last single last night and this morning and could not wait to play them all together.
This is my first true 4 ply and I think I'm obsessed.
I'm about to skein it all up, but I couldn't help but share the bobbin. #handspinnners #spinner

Life lessons from students overheard at lunch.
"Guys, if you have candy, make sure you have more. You'll definitely need it."

I'm not arguing.
#candy #easter #egghunt #kidslovecandy #kidwisdom

I tried to wear purple and pink today, to match the Easter theme at school. I came down and my partner said, "That's a costume."
I didn't wear it.🤓🖤

The bobbin continues to fill up with peachy, pinks, light blues and lavenders.

5/100 Days of Spinning little bits at a time.
#handspinnersofbluesky #handspinner #showmeyourspins #ashfordtraditional

A bobbin with small bumps of single in the colours peach, coral, white, lavender and blue.

4/100 Days of Spinning
Just a little today. I'm tired and didn't sleep much last night. So the beginning of single 3 out of 4. I'm starting to see more control over colours by spinning from the fold, until I get to the end of that fluff, which is just blended leftovers. Just observing. #handspinner