Ash

Happy day 10 #alcoholfree. I was given a kickass job offer in WebOps so I’m considering it good luck. 😎

It is so hard being a mom.

I changed my handle to reflect my name because I'm a freak that likes consistency... and also, screw it. I don't know why I feel I need to have anonymity for my sober story; that's me being afraid to own the path fully. So here we are. Happy 9 days #boozefree!

Love the colorsssss 🫶🏼

It’s always the stupidest little things that throw me into an anxious fit and ultimately land me in, “ugh, I could go for a beer” land.

But NOPE. Not fcking today. I’m going to work through all this petty shit.

Does anyone else get irrationally pissed when you type out a long, intentional message and you get back a cold, one word response?

I need to stop turning to shitty people for support who seemingly don’t care about me and/or lack the self-awareness to realize how much that sucks. 🙄🙄

Turned out I was off on my count today so happy one week af to me! Landed a killer job opportunity and tentative offer so that’s great. 😎

Day 5 #boozefree over here and feeling pretty damn good. Had some kickass interviews for agency jobs today so we’ll see.

It’s insane to me how so many jobs now require like a 6-part process though. Seems pretty excessive, right? Maybe one day I’ll finally get my PhD and change that crap. lol.

Day 4 af.

Imagine being rich enough to do anything you want and choosing to take food and medicine from starving children to give yourself even more money.

Likewise! Here for you! 💪🏼 I’m hopping on my exercise bike in the first time for months—maybe since even having my second kiddo and she’s almost 2. lmao. So, wish me luck. Hahaha

So far so good. Just need to feel it out these first few weeks and then I’m hoping it’ll get much easier. Have to get used to myself again. Which is weird because I didn’t realize how much I had lost her.

Thank you! So weird. When you’re focused on all the good stuff and busy in a healthy way, it’s no issue. But man, that little creep into the brain and awareness can be soul-sucking. I hope you were able to overcome!

Ya know, I have gone weeks and months without having a drink and not thinking about it. But as soon as I admit to myself it’s an issue again, it seems to be all I can think about. 🙄

But I just can’t do it anymore. It makes me feel like shit and I end up acting like a complete fcking moron.

Todays been a better day, but a quiet one. Not complaining.

I deleted FB and IG. Def won’t miss. And I’m stepping back from my PhD to focus on accepting that I’m enough as is.

My overachieving brain has been/is a huge problem. Not to mention, more debt just fcking sucks.

Day 3 af. Slowly, I’m building momentum again. Went to a killer TLC meeting this morning and found some comfort I needed.

I think the worst part is knowing I once had 554 days under my belt and feeling like I’m “starting over.” And maybe I am. But in a lot of ways, I’m just beginning again.

Thanks!

Thank you. 🫶🏼 I wish there was an on and off switch.

When they ban a book, find it and read it.

Day 2 af. Feeling disconnected, frustrated, and lost. Tried to do the best I could though—made coffee, showered, applied to jobs, cried.

Joined The Luckiest Club and started Laura’s first book. It’s unreal how relateable it all feels.

Hi. I created this account to connect with others who are #alcoholfree. Today is day 1 (again) for me. I feel pretty miserable and ashamed but wanted somewhere to put my thoughts and hopefully gain a community of support.