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i hate how hard i fall for people if i do. yeah sure ive established you're in a relationship and we never really had that close of a friendship but what if i had a seizure internally every single time you acknowledged me and your complexion is like that of freshly hatched butterfly wings. what then

if someone points out my missing nail again im gna kayemess

what does a man have to do for $75

i think im hanging out with somebody later and my body is deciding to fight me so im cramps galore, im sure im just a joy to be around rn but maybe my meds will kick in and ill do a lil better

we are going to play the original manhunt game :)

as much as id love to believe they dont liquid cals unfortunately do count especially alcohol ones

said no to an alcohol drink i usually love to drink cause it just occurred to me on the last one it has no caloric information so i have absolutely no doubt they're like 300 cals each, expensive asf too and i need to stop being an alcoholic as a personality

a brown teddy bear is laying down on a yellow pillow ALT: a brown teddy bear is laying down on a yellow pillow

goodnight sleep well

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENNNNWEEDDDD BAHHAGAHZAGSGSSSAAAAAAAAA *dies*

manifesting this back into my life i used to be 115lbs and looked AWFUL it was perfect

cant wait to get a job and just use all my time making excuses to work out by walking and lifting things

its like my body knows my brains disordered and is actively fighting against it to hold weight and to retain shit. nah bro trust me you need 30k steps and 5 gallons of water trust me its for health reasons

i hate that im such a brick genetically on one hand its useful cause im tough and can lift things and im fully aware i am literally just healthy however. what if. no <3

just found out my bmi is 24.7 what if i [[LIVED A HAPPY LIFE]]

ontop of this most things that arent natural just feel like sludge anyway. replacing sweets with frozen fruit and honey has kinda been my biggest brain move ever

while not being comfortable being moots with someone 3 yrs younger than me i just wanted to let you know your username is peak and im jelly i didnt think of it first n thought u should know this /pos

breakfast probably omad besides whatevers for dinner ft. my fuckass coffee grounds

like how am i supposed to lose calories when i dont even have the energy from the calories ive eaten to move more than an inch. ive decided to just cut out "unnecessary" calories like snacks entirely unless a friend offers them to look normal

anyone else struggle to maintain their ed versus their mobility / physical issues? i would be in a deficit by now if i actually expended any calories. workouts in my room to at least get all of my muscles to burn and just hoping it makes up for how little i actually get out of bed

what if i just explode

i love losing and gaining the same 10 lbs i love losing and gaining the same 10 lbs i love

no same, once ive started i cant imagine stopping, when i stop i cant imagine starting

yay

i miss having someone in my life who enabled me still smh everyone i know is just "concerned for my health" and "worried about me" no bitch come with me

mania save me manic episode come save me

i was saving food for her i was going to feed her today did i wait too long? is it my fault? i did my best

my spider passed i will be relapsing

heehoo live laugh love working out instead of consuming

a bowl of rice, 2 pieces of chicken and a vape

it dinner