noia 🍤 edsky

march 6th 2025

today i weighed in at 89.8 lbs, 0.2 under my third ugw. it meant nothing to me and i just set a lower ugw for myself

eating a can of soup every day is letting me tap into my roots of pretending i was living in a zombie apocalypse where i had to ration the food as a child

sometimes it feels so hopeless and that therapy will never help me get better because i’ll never fully open up about my eating disorder. it’s because i don’t want help and i don’t want recovery

i’m trying so hard to distract myself from eating until at least tomorrow night, i wish i never started buying groceries again

cookie your reply means the world to me, just the acknowledgment is thoughtful and ilysm 🩵

grieving the death of my mother and being balls deep in my eating disorder has turned me into such a hateful, bitter, jealous, and angry person

I’M INACTIVE EVERY DAY i keep trying to let go of edtwt but i’m not strong enough

gn and sleep well lita

SUSHI WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST
100 was my “ugw” for the longest time but i’m very short so i feel like i just make new ugws as i go

this is so scary myra, i’m sorry you even have to think about the chance of this kind of diagnosis and i hope you don’t have it. you’re in my thoughts

maybe my reward for when i’m back under 95 will be sushi again

hiii i recognize you from edtwt

YUMMM this all looks so good, hope you enjoyed

the loseit website is painfully outdated

so this didn’t happen i wasn’t ready

happy new year,

i hope in 2025 everyone can get to the point where they feel comfortable with who they are and how they look and they can recover

guys please

wait edsky what’s with the influx of alt/backup accounts are people getting suspended or is it a just in case thing?

i’m a youngest sibling too

i’m debating soft announcing that i relapsed 4 months ago to my best friends, i haven’t told them about my eating disorder so i’m scared but i never talk about my mental illness and i need someone to listen to me

i’m writing a general statement about my mental illness(es) but i don’t want recovery

yaaay, have a good last day

i can’t believe i’m turning 21 soon wow i’m so ready for my eating disorder to magically go away so i can leave online ed spaces forever /s

not tmi but thank you for the advice and making me feel less alone, i don’t know how i’m going to make a makeshift heat compress because i have nothing in my apartment (i sabotaged myself so i could bedrot and only focus on my studies or walking) so i have no resources here 😭

it totally could be but i fear i’m one of those people who’s prone to suspecting the worst, i know i can’t just webmd my symptoms and the only way of knowing for sure is getting a check up but i don’t go home for another week while i’m at university

these are objectively the best ruffles flavor mmm i love cheddar & sour cream chips

i have a lump on my inner thigh and a family history of cancer but i don’t know how to get it checked out without them asking about my weight loss and if it was on purpose or accidental and if they press about it being on purpose

they look so cool wtf i want their style

sushi time

seaweed salad with chili flakes, a rainbow roll, and a california roll 🍣