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'A pleasantly confused breeze on a warm summer's day.' A sad sack vent blog Twitch.tv/Phunockery
How's everyone's Saturday night. I'm racing the clock with a medication that causes vertigo and drawing boxes.
So far they are adequate but the future is a mysterious mistress.
How do you tell someone you've seen better (fantasy) dead horses without sounding like a jerk?
26.10.2025 00:21 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0Sometimes the mundane things of others get me. I'm checking for bujo inspo and I find a cute spread
A Todo catches my eye:
'Prepare for hurricane'
The chaos of the world is startling sometimes.
On top of all this, my dad thinks that I'm talking about carbonated water when I tell him I've had 7 gran-mal seizures this past week... so that's fun.
23.10.2025 20:49 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0I really need someone who can tell me it'll be alright and give me a hug.
23.10.2025 20:45 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0I'm trying to organize everything, keep all my appointments straight. I have packets of paper that are 80% filler and hidden in the pages are things I need to attend so I have a chance at independence.
I am so overwhelmed and I really wish I wasn't doing all this alone.
At this point I don't even know who of my friends are actually friends and it's nothing but an exhausting guessing game.
How do I know how to reach out for help when I don't even know who will answer the phone without snapping at me?
Maybe someone to call when I'm in a crisis and need a comforting voice to tell me that someone does care.
But instead I just feel like a dog who has gotten too used to being stuck in a cage gnawing endlessly on their leg. A burden that no one knows what to do with.
I wish I had a list of people I could contact when the sky is falling. So far all attempts have ended in either 'thats weird' 'find someone else' or 'I'm quiting therapy to be a death doula.'
I want someone to play video games with maybe get high with sometimes. Someone I can just be me around.
Now it feels like I am crazy for wanting to be heard. I feel crazy for being upset that no one knew I was gone. I know mental health issues are taboo, but it hurts when the hardest part of your life isn't even perceived and you have to pretend you're okay.
22.10.2025 22:17 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0Sure I had 7 Gran-mal / Tonic-clonic seizures at the hospital. Sure I dislocated multiple joints and suffered through adverse side effects... But at least people made me feel welcome and wanted to talk to me.
I was curious and interesting and people listened when I spoke.
I was in the hospital for a week. I told 3 friends. No one else knew or was told. I've never asked for privacy. I feel like I've begged for people to know I'm struggling for months. But the fact is my presences isn't the sort that's missed
I just left the hospital and I just want to go back.
I'm back
21.10.2025 13:17 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0Protesting soon? PLEASE listen to these wise words on how to scrub the meta data on your photos before sharing them. Keep yourself and others safe.
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Perhaps she thought Johnny could use some company? I'm very sorry for how hard this year has been.
09.10.2025 13:02 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0She was a sweety
09.10.2025 12:31 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0I've gotten tanks, warhogs, how to fire several air crafts and how to fire rockets. It's a trip.
21.09.2025 01:32 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
Going live and drinking coffee
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I will not be going live this afternoon. I'm dealing with both real world and fictional emotions and I don't have the space to also be 'on' whilst working on this scene
I will see you guys tomorrow on TikTok.
Coffee and Chat while I do more writing stuff. Come for coffee, stay for the clacks
Coffee Chat
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Coffe Chat
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Having to block family sucks. Doesn't matter the reason, it sucks.
15.09.2025 00:26 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0Having multiple mental illnesses is weird. Is my tic disorder getting better or is my depression getting worse? Is my tic disorder getting worse or is my depression getting better? Are these normal seizures or are they the stress induced kind? Does my depression affect my seizures? What is my life?
13.09.2025 02:55 — 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0My 9-11 experience started with being locked in my middle school bathroom because an adult was following lock down protocol. All I heard was crying then some screaming when the second tower fell.
I thought my school was under attack, though the truth wasn't much better.
Click Clack Stream
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Drinking, Chatting and clicking that clacks
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Coffee Chat starting now
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Sipping coffee, chatting about whatever, bring your most unhinged getting to know you questions.
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I can't wait! I really hope they drop a directors cut of Kpop Demon Hunterz in between movies.
07.09.2025 21:16 — 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 1 📌 0
Coffee Chat
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