selflathing

...imagine waiting around in a Pure Land for humans to invent email of all things

maybe this is what Maitreya was waiting for!

"unsorted email inbox" as hell realm

about gmail in particular? or do you want the full list?

i fucking hate picking paint colors. classic "taste exceeds ability" situation. my heart knows what it wants and i can't even describe it let alone choose the colors. sitting here surrounded by ben moore fandecks feeling dejected and frustrated

i knew that stars can be different colours and didn't tell you. i'm sorry

and spackle!

thank you!

please let me know if you get anywhere with this, it's been on my project list for ages but it's a surprisingly uphill battle for something so obvious

no, i do not want an unreplaceable integrated LED at some hideous CRI and color temp thank you!!!

i relaxed into my default posture, and immediately felt relief and joy. so now i have this to feel out!

aha - posture work is asking me to hold my body in ways i'm unused to, which means i'm constantly a bit tense and uncomfortable. explains my sour mood!

doesn't seem as vibrant lately

i was excited for the potential of community and it's disappointing to feel it crumble so quickly :(

bunnyposting

trees seem more beautiful without my glasses on. i can see the light and dark on the leaves, and their motion on the wind seems like a dance

a problem with my social media rn is that both the bird app and this one feel very unbalanced. bird has too much analytical / thinky energy lately, here feels too unpopulated to have variety

so both are bad experiences. though that's pushing me offline, which i'm kinda appreciating

it means five times more focused!

sometimes i see humans as little round hard balls at the top and then so much just dangling off the central area. we're an embarrassingly noodly species and i don't know how we take ourselves seriously

yup, i'm with you! finding the gang was a delightful a-ha moment, but my desire to spend lots of time in front of a computer is low. would much rather an in-person gathering at the mo but, as usual, boston seems to have little to offer

woah. a rare mention of the b-word from shannon!

when i joined tpot in ~feb i was in a very reflect-y growth-y phase and finding a group of spiritually adjacent folks who were committed to the work felt like good company

now it's summer and i don't have a job, the combo of sunlight + being able to do what i want changes my baseline mood

oh, please don't apologize! it's prompting me to reflect on what i want to get out of social media myself. that question wasn't on my mind before, so it's a bit of a surprise, but i think it's worth re-evaluating :)

and... right back acha!

it feels especially unappealing now that you're not there, shannon! your posts slowed the timeline down for me, gave it some breathing space

that said i haven't been doing much relating there lately either. been very outwardly focused + engaged in the world!