Rei ✨️

in light of recent events regarding utdr music

i’m a lesbian dan and phil fan i don’t think any of this is a surprise

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i’m hanging in there. i have a good support system and we’re all helping each other get through this

thank you saff, i appreciate it. i’m hanging in there the best that i can. 💖💖💖

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mhm, rei aka falloutphan_ is in fact me. i’m doing the best that i can, all things considered, but also i don’t think i’ll be able to confidently answer yes to “are you okay” for a long time

and i appreciate the hug 🫂

you really cooked with that last sentence i can’t lie

i think ashley’s post encompasses what i feel best bsky.app/profile/ashm...

before the other victims and i came together, i thought it was maybe 10 people max. and when we posted it, i thought there might be a handful of other people sharing their experiences. but now my whole tl is full of people coming forward. makes me sick

🫂

it does, thank you.

there were 21 of us in the main doc, plus cibles and her gf, plus at least a couple dozen more that i’ve seen on twitter. i wouldn’t be surprised if the number is in the triple digits.

the thought makes me sick to my stomach, but it wouldn’t surprise me in the slightest

someone on twitter said it’s a whole metoo movement but for one guy and. when you put it like that. god

responses like that were what kept me up at night between writing my statement and the document being posted, but the support of people like you have given me the confidence that i was 100% correct in saying my piece

The actions of one queer individual do not make up the entirety of the minority, just like any other minority group.

Your focus should instead be listening to the victims and understanding their troubles

thanks 💖💖💖

My own experiences with Shayy.

docs.google.com/document/d/1...

i wanted to write up something about my experience in communities involving shayy, and how im feeling about the terrible things they have done. i found shayy somewhere around this time in 2021. 2021 was easily the worst year in my entire life, where i had a very debilitating breakdown in august that had been coming for around a few months, and that my mental state hasnt really recovered from since. even before this i was extremely isolated because of my disability and mental illnesses that caused me to basically not talk to anyone since i was a young child. i found a video of a speedrun shayy had done of deltarune chapter 2. i was interested in deltarune as it had basically just released and the speedrun interested me a lot. i was never really into speedrunning before this and i wanted to try it out for myself. i joined the deltarune speedrunning community because i couldnt figure out how to do a now very outdated strat. joining this server was probably the most impactful decision i made in my life. i started talking more in the server because of the welcoming environment it had and i eventually joined shayys discord server after being gifted a sub, and also the undertale speedrunning server at some point. i originally just joined shayys server because i wanted to join their sub only minecraft server, but i did stick around for other things and it became an extremely important community to me. as i mentioned earlier before i joined these communities i had basically no interaction with anybody for a very long time of my life and was extremely lonely. joining them was the first time i actually talked with people and it gave me something actually valuable in my life.

i grew a lot as a person being in shayys server as i was only 14 years old when i joined, and it was the first time i got the opportunity to interact with people freely in such a long time. even now it is still basically impossible for me to make friends with people irl, with my heavy social anxiety, selective mutism and not being in school / work. i started making friends after being in the server for a while, some of them i unfortunately havent talked to in a long time, and some i still talk to today. ive been a part of multiple friend servers because of frog family, and while some of them have fallen apart or ive left for personal reasons, im really grateful for all of them and i currently have a circle of friends i appreciate a lot. theres so much i could say about my experiences with frog family but im generally just writing this section as a thank you to the friends ive made being there, and the moderators that helped keep them functioning. it is also not to make the current situation about me and how hurt i am, i just want to show appreciation to what the community has been.

now to talk about the document, shayys actions are extremely disgusting and im still trying to process the fact that this has been going on for basically the entire time ive been in the community. up until now me and many people have seen their server as a safe space (especially for queer and neurodivergent people) and its horrifying to know that they have been taking advantage of and assaulting people. every single person that ive interacted with mentioned in the document is a wonderful person and a few i would say are friends.if there are any victims of shayy reading this, i am extremely sorry to hear the terrible things that you have gone through and i hope youre in a better place now. i also want to thank the moderators and everyone who worked on the document for your work on respectfully adressing the situation while getting so many insulting comments on the original post. i also do hope thSat shayy does receive any help they need and betters themself as a person. i was never at all a close friend of theirs but i did have good interactions with them and i respected them a lot. i am still very glad to know that they have been banned from the undertale and deltarune speedrunning communities, and i hope i never see them ever again. even though shayys community wont exist anymore, the relationships that youve made there are still real. if you dont have me added and want to stay in contant feel free to add me on discord (confused_coder). if you are a current victim of abuse reading this, i really hope that you can escape your situation, and please stay connected to the good people around you as much as possible. abusers have the most power when their victims are isolated so please reach out to someone. for help if possible

the mods have linked charities for sexual + domestic abuse victims and for lgbtq+ people which i will also link here.

i’m doing my best. i’m already feeling a lot better now that everything is public, but i’d be lying if i said i felt “fine.” naturally it’s gonna take a long time to heal, but the amount of support i’ve seen has given me at least a little hope that things will be okay

thank you so much, i truly deeply appreciate it. putting my story out there was admittedly quite terrifying, but seeing the overwhelming amount of support for the victims has given me some hope and reaffirmed that i did the right thing. 💖

same. thankfully most of the responses i’ve seen have been supportive, but the few bad ones make my blood boil. “when the random eceleb you dislike-“ stfu these are real people they hurt you absolute buffoons

genuinely all of the supportive posts have given me at least some hope in all this<3

second part goes double for anyone saying “this will set the lgbt community back years” btw

to those of you who have been supporting the victims, encouraging us, and lifting us up: thank you, truly, from the bottom of my heart. it means the world
and to those of you making jokes to get a few likes and downplaying the severity of what happened to us: go fuck yourselves.

hey everyone i just wanted to write something about shayy. after seeing the document i decided to write my own experience just to show that shay's behaviour is not new. docs.google.com/document/d/1...

thank you so much, i truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart

YouTube video by VyletBunni PSA: Do Not Interact With Shayy

CW: Sexual assault, sexual harrassment, grooming, abuse

Shayy has done horrible things to their friends and loved ones. My response:

youtu.be/OnSv7YXYk68

A compilation of statements regarding Shayy Preface We, a collective group of Shayy’s victims and former friends, accuse Shayy of actions including but not limited to sexual assault, sexual harassment, grooming, orbiting fans until they’re of ...

CW: Sexual assault, sexual harrassment, grooming, abuse

While in the community, Shayy has committed reprehensible acts including grooming multiple fans and assaulting their now ex-partner. They are an active danger to the community. Please read

docs.google.com/document/d/1...

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