Crystal Joy

The feminine urge to drive to a field of cows and sing the lon lon ranch song for them...

THE SPIDERS ARE BACK OMFG 😭😭😭😭

😎😎😎😎 GOOD THINGS CAN STILL HAPPEN 😎😎😎😎

Not one to share shit from my journal, but I this line I wrote today went surprisingly hard???

"My mental health is holding onto the ledge of joy with bloody fingernails"

Like ok, girl. Make it more clear you used to be an emo kid lmao

LITERALLY WHY AFTER THE WORST WEEK OF THE YEAR SO FAR FOR ME, IS MY CAR INFESTED WITH SPIDERS.

WHY. I WANT TO SPEAK TO A MANAGER.

Kanye made a betrayal list so I made my own

My personal little game for the year "don't cry in this public space" has been lost SO many times this week 🥲

BUT! I haven't been caught yet

So...😎👉👉

Counting that as a win

Tbh, it's the worst one in a few months and I can directly tie it back to eating like a racoon on set last month and not following my endo maintenrnce rules/diet. 🥲

I've done this to myself.

Any other girly-pops get overwhelming emotional whiplash after a bad multi-day PMDD flare up? I stg, for two days I'm one second from driving off a cliff and then the hormones swing back to normal. Then I'm mentally good but now I have guilt for accomplishing nothing for two days and I feel hungover

It does 💛

This week has been a roller coaster

Got an in person call back for a lead (in a small short, but still!) 🎉
Im less than two weeks out from living in my car 🫠
The ghost box photoshoot video I took a lot of time on is doing well 🎉
The job interview canceled last minute 🫠

I'm tired & my heart hurts.

Maybe it’s not too late to learn how to love and forget how to hate. - Ozzy Osbourne

Wednesday is with us again, so grab your family and friends and drag them out to buy a book! - Michael

Lately, I am either 100% filled with excitement and gratitude for the beauty of life or I'm 100% on the edge of crashing out and ending it all 🫠

I miss my therapist.

Being that unemployed friend on a Tuesday is bringing a ghost box to a cemetery so you can talk to ghosts while you do a photoshoot.

She's got aura, bitch. ✌️

Randomly found this in my phone photos and it got me choked up.
Hits different after a divorce that throws a wrench into your life.

If life is crumbling apart, at least we can try to be hot about it. 💅

Red headed woman with lots of dried mascara tear stains down her face, looming very over it all.

"How's your week going, Crystal?"

My mascara ran like a cinematic masterpiece today, so there's that.

I see even blue sky has yet to master the edit post capability, huh.

Y'all, I really don't want back on insta but pink sky is not letting me upload anything 😩. Cara is cool but there's no videoooo. Urgh.

Why are cars so expensive 🫠