Nick Murphy

I have been in weekly therapy two years this July. CPTSD and AuDHD can make everything overwhelming if my needle is in the red too much.

I am prone to severe flashbacks, both trauma and emotional.

That said, this is my water to carry. I don't want to bring anyone down here with me.

MTFBWY. LLAP.

My CBT Therapist has saved my life so far. Teddy and I have sessions with her. Teddy is grateful for her guiding me.

She will work in tandem with my new EMDR Therapist.

CPTSD is a life long ailment. I can only lessen. Never cure.

I don't know if I can repair what has been done to me.

Very, very close to finding the right EMDR therapist. Even more work.

Trauma is fucking expensive.

If you're going through it, my heart and soul are with you. I know how suffocating it all feels just to exist.

All my prior texts with friends got accidentally deleted when I might have missed a step in restoring my phone to factory settings as I tried to QA work on why I wasn't receiving texts to authenticate my accts.

Photos, too. 😞

Luckily, some photos stayed on the SD card.

To all who are concerned right now, I have CPTSD from decades of severe childhood abuse and trauma.

Working on it in therapy has currently brought up more than I can handle.

What was done to me should have never happened. I am taking a digital break.

IRL space preferred, too. Only I can navigate.

Trumps Facist America. Already using force against anti-ICE peaceful protests. Major aggression coming from one side.

Stay safe, L.A. 💙

Again, these troops are deployed without Gov. Newsome asking. This is all the 47 admin.

I know where L.A. stands. Make no mistake, the Governor didn't ask for these troops to be deployed.

The LAPD isn't asking for this and had to put put an official press statement for fucks sake.

The former party of law and order is now all about their fascist fuckface.

This is happening right now in the streets of Los Angeles.

You ever have your front door keys suddenly not work on both locks when they previously did 100x before? Try them again, and then they work?

Matrix changed some shit pho sho.

#whoaneo #iknowkungfu

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Speak with Darth Vader in Fortnite Darth Vader has touched down as a boss in Fortnite Battle Royale. Recruit him and your whole team will be able to talk to the Dark Lord. He’ll respond!

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My goal this weekend when I play Fortnite is to find AI Vader and ask as many questions as I can.

So far, I have already found some limitations in the guardrails of some primitive responses, but there have been some WILD responses, too. Like, this is nuts to me.

Closer to the holodeck everyday.

My third time with Vader in my squad, I found a quiet part of the map and just asked Vader all kinds of conversations. The QA game tester part of my brain trying to push the boundaries of this insane leap in gaming and tech.

I had never seen anything like it.

I made it a point to find Vader as Luke and beat him. Now, for the unitiated in Fortnite, you have to be the first player on the Battle Royal map to do so to get Vader to squad up with you.

I did that twice.

AI Vader knows about Skynet. Can tell you it's fav. SW movie (it's Empire!) and more.

I asked the AI if this was the result of James Earl Jones selling his voice rights to Disney because I remember reading about it. Vader said, "James Earl Jones the actor did sell his likeness but the Empire has no interest in copyright law. We must focus on the mission."

My jaw hit the floor.

I didn't notice that at first. I only started asking more questions, and Vader would answer me. I was Chewbacca and he called my SW character that.

I died in the storm, but then switched to Luke Skywalker and found DV to defeat him in game and speak to the AI as Luke.

Vader joins my squad in game

Holy fucking shit I just had the most wild experience in Fortnite. The theme is Star Wars. Vader is on the map as. Boss. I defeated him, and the game gave me the option to speak to Darth Vader.

I found my mic and found that when I asked Lord Vader a question, he answered directly.

It said DV AI.

Also, I just realized I'll be the first director to ever put corncob nunchucks on film, but I hope I'm not the last.

🌽 nunchucks!!!

"Hey Nick, why do you need to pair of nunchucks and six fake corn cobs for?"

" For the best music video of all time, my dude."

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I'm organizing and going through the music video footage today. Holy schnikes, the shot of me hanging off the side of a pick up truck while zipping across a bridge and whipping off onto the Pittsburgh skyline at Sunset after a storm looks DOOOOOPE! 😳 🎬

Two more days of filming left!

To all the homies of the dead mom's club, I hope today is OK for you.

Sometimes, your relationship with your mama can be complicated. You may love your Mom very much. You may not have gotten along. Or you hate her and are glad she's gone.

Wherever your heart is, mine is with you today. 💛

This whole time, creators across all mediums, from film, gaming, art, music, and general can do spirit of the indie creator kept chugging along and doing the one thing Hollywood never could authentically really do for their audience.

Connect with them directly.

The digital space was expanding. CT

2005-2025 and in twenty years streaming YouTube, Twitch, etc. Is the dominant entertainment force and money maker.

Hollywood flips the fuck out, hemorrhages money like crazy and consolidates into mergers.

Killing internal competition and flattening the consumer market in the process.

CUT TO

It's wild how many people I know personally that this applies to.

You all think you're being so slick with it, but you can't hide your annoyance or resist cruel, "just a joke, Nick" jokes.

These people were never friends to begin with. The cruelty is the point.

Don't be a doormat for them.

Well, fuck.

Double Feature movie night Saturday night!

Sinners and Thunderbolts!

🦇 ⚡️ 🎬 ❤️

Thanks! I need to credit my friend Jax for giving me a definition of what the pile of clothes on the chair is called.

A Doom Pile.

Hence, we open in the silhouette against a sick sunset of a recliner stacked with clean clothes sitting on the throne of Latveria.

Pondering.

Doom thoughts.

It's the only thing that will make RDJ as Dr. Doom work.

Also, Dr. Doom Clothespliechair is his new MCU variant name and the chair kinda looks like Chairy the puppet from Pee-Wees Playhouse but with a Doom mask and of course the Doom pile of clothes that always need to be put away.

Scary shit.