eden ♱ edbsky

mental illness got me. I'm back tho

never fucking updated but I've lost 3 lbs!! we at 142 now babey

today was really good!! weighing myself tonight 👀

480 calories today. a little high for me but it's okay I think

I fully blocked the account 😭

I want that thigh gap BAD

I have noticed some improvement around my thighs but the scale will be more honest than my eyes lol

weighing myself tomorrow pray for me yall 😭

500ish calories i think but it's hard to calculate it since I didn't make it. either way I'm ok and I'm being kind to myself while I'm on my period

survived work!!! had a taco for my meal since we were having a cinco de mayo party :) resisted the urge to purge and I feel pretty okay

forcing myself to omad while I'm on my period cause last time I didn't I passed out

we all deserve a crunchwrap

to be clear: very aware of how bad the community was. I was there. this is entirely my mental illness talking

ok one of my toxic traits is that I lowkey miss old eedee tumblr and all the insane old weebly sites. all the unhinged diets, pages upon pages of th1nspo and gifsets. this is entirely just my sick brain being sick. I'm fully aware of how toxic and bad the space was but damn. it's nostalgic in a way.

felt kinda sick today so I had some yogurt. overall I'm very pleased with myself

trying to fast today. found out that I'm not gonna have a day off work for two weeks which is scary cause Work Is Where The Food Is but I'm armed with like 6 water bottles

wait omg my names eden. i have an 3ating disorder...
eden-disorder lmfao

the shame and guilt will get to me in like an hour I just know it.

gf made me eat like 20 nuggets so i just purged for the first time in over a year. I really don't want to get back into that habit since I already had to get one of my back teeth removed bc stomach acid fucked it up

so far so good!

my manager handing me some of the food he was cutting up for lunch. bro am I a joke to you

mad about today but whatever. gonna bring rice cakes to work and try to compensate for eating too much tonight. then it's gym time, gonna aim for 5 hours on the treadmill

total for today was 629 cals this is evil

binged when I got home oh my god. oh my god

no idea where it gets 71 minutes from tho

on the bright side this was just from walking around at work

hiding this relapse from my fiancee is actually insanely easy god bless

yknow just last night I was bitching that my meal was over the target and I think I cursed myself 😭

STOOOOOOOOOP UGHHHHHHH