marsha.

$9.72 in my account. anything helps

i hate that anyone has to feel this way. i’m sorry you’re going through it, too. i know it can’t last forever, i just wish it wouldn’t stick around so long each time

thank you ❤️

$9.72 in my account. anything helps

at a low point again. haven’t self-harmed, but the urge is there. i just wanna feel something positive. i wanna eat good food. i wanna make someone laugh. i wanna feel loved. i wanna share joy in a common interest with another human.

instead, i stay in my room. waiting for the pain to end.

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well, it’s that time again. i was fortunate enough in december to get enough to survive all of january without needing to call out for help, but now i’m down to less than $10 in my account.

well, it’s that time again. i was fortunate enough in december to get enough to survive all of january without needing to call out for help, but now i’m down to less than $10 in my account.

haven’t eaten since last night. severe depression. broke. don’t wanna die, don’t wanna be alive either.

i’m sorry

depressive episode incoming

i’m moved in back at my parents’ house. feels surreal being back in my old room all these years later. i’m just thankful to have a roof over my head

tomorrow, i move out of this place. i hope things start getting better soon.

so it’s a “wake up with pain in my right eye” followed by “seeing a blurred ghost image of everything just slightly above with the same eye” kind of sunday

groceries funded! thank you so much ❤️🫂

i got my desk cleaned and half packed up, and i broke down

i need to finish packing and cleaning but i just wanna stop existing

i hope his Beast is one of the first to go by Dr. Doom’s hand in Doomsday

sadly hoping i don’t wake up again. don’t worry, i haven’t self-harmed. i’m just so tired of existing like this.

YouTube video by Marsha Brew marsha's skate. vids season 2 vol. 2

i did a thing

feat. "Punk Tactics" by Joey Valence & Brae

www.youtube.com/watch?v=mQ9t...

thank you 🙂

YouTube video by Marsha Brew marsha's skate. vids season 2 vol. 2

i did a thing

feat. "Punk Tactics" by Joey Valence & Brae

www.youtube.com/watch?v=mQ9t...

i miss the joy i felt last night, as small as it was just from getting to cook and eat a hamburger. all i feel tonight is emptiness and self-loathing.

i’m at a point in editing where i’m not sure if i’ve picked the right song for the video, and i’ve already done all of the color correction/filters/effects that i interpreted from said song to fit the vibe. ugh.

a freshly cooked hamburger with bacon, ketchup, and mustard on a toasted sesame seed bun, plated on a red plastic plate

i did something beautiful tonight. first time making a burger for 2025. i have never cherished a meal more in this era of my adult life.

today, i’m fighting between the desire to get things done around the house so i can move next weekend, and the desire to stop existing. how’s your day going?

a screenshot of a video game skateboarder character doing a sick air trick in a skatepark under a highway bridge

sup

the loneliness is devastating tonight

depression and food insecurity are an awful combo to have

YouTube video by Marsha Brew marsha's skate. vids 15 | end of season 1

new skate. vid uploaded, my last before season 2 drops

youtu.be/N0A3R0jxkao