Stosh

Absolutely am doing great on my social media distancing - so great that I hadn’t even logged in on this in weeks.

This morning, gave in and put on Christmas music. Fully believe you shouldn’t until after Thanksgiving but…I need <i>something</i>.

It’s ok to put the phone down.

I feel like I’m screaming and no one is hearing me.

I feel like my heart is breaking and I cannot catch my breath and it sucks. I live alone and I like it. But loneliness? It is like a knife. I don’t even feel like this after a trip home. What the hell.

A huge part of me is like “ugh why a winter storm this week whyyyyy”. Then another part is “please yes make it possible for me to work at home in my pjs.” 🤦🏼‍♀️

I’m going to Ocean’s Calling and I’m STOKED.

I put it off for so long. Also deactivated my FB, but I have yet to completely delete it. That one is harder.

Finally deleted my twitter and it feels like the end of something momentous. I’m actually sad about leaving that hellscape it’s become.

Two snow days in a row. I almost don’t know what to do with myself.

38 minutes until Christmas break and I have officially given up.

Didn’t take my meds all last week due to the flu and thought I’d have a rebound effect by now. Definitely not sleeping, but the emotional roller coaster I typically feel hasn’t hit yet. Does that mean it’s gonna be a doozy when it does? 🧐

It’s just a sinus infection. And the flu. Nbd. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Being sick sucks. I can barely breathe and when I lay down, all the grossness settles in my nose and then I can only breathe through my mouth. And I can’t sleep. Ugh.

Wordle 1,252 1/6

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My word! Was the Wordle! Amazing!

Welp, it’s snowing.

Sleep? In this hellscape?

And my nook just froze. Great.

Sprained my ankle. Again. In a boot again. Good grief, Charlie Brown. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Just trying to muddle through and am SO relieved that I have a three day weekend. Even if I am going to do work tomorrow, at least I can on my couch in pajamas.

Only took a day and a half for my first panic attack. It’s going to be a long school year.

Repair tech to my modem: I get paid by the hour but my patience does NOT.

Using this forever, thanks.

In my fourth or fifth #thewestwing rewatch and what if they did President Sam Seaborn giving the SOTU? Or election night? Or navigating a crisis? Thank you, Hartsfield’s Landing. 🫢

My boomer father is officially the kind of person that you explain something to him and he doesn’t understand and gets defensive about it. 🙃🙄

My dental hygienist just put “pt has severe anxiety for dental procedures” and I feel so seen.

I like being in daylight savings! But the time change sucks.

Side note: big ups to Aldi for some amazing blackberries. So good.

My PMS has evolved to include EXTREME frustration over anything, everything, anyone, and everyone. So much so I want to cry.

…it’s thunder storming outside. Wtf?

My taxes are doooooooonnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeee! *dance*

It is January 26 and it is 70° outside in Maryland. This feels so wrong.

School let out early, my night job cancelled - pajama tiiiiiiime!