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Surpassed 250k words on my main story with this update. Absolutely bonkers, but it really is an honor that people are enjoying my ocs and original yaoi fiction! over a year later and I still can’t believe it

I love writing dialogue so I write long conversations that include small talk and other dialogue I’m sure an editor would tell me to cut lol. But I find it enjoyable so it works for me. My big story is also a slowburn (w/o touching for a loooong time—like 80k+ words lol) so it’s a ton of convo lol

chapter 29 is technically in progress but it’s going slow. the holidays and the depression are making it really tough so I apologize for the delay!

The story is still ongoing, updates are just going to be slower until my brain has less trouble focusing

✨happy holidays & merry Christmas!✨

@thefireguard.bsky.social AMERICA pt 2

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All pleasures are guilty pleasures if you have high enough anxiety

my jaw hurts so bad from clenching my teeth so hard all night jfc

don’t get me wrong, I clench during the day too which doesn’t help but night time is the worst ✨

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"is this a pigeon?" meme, except it's a writer looking at a perfectly normal first draft and asking "Is this the worst thing ever written?"

Remember, a first draft's only job is to exist

Self awareness is the most important trait you can cultivate. Only through constant introspection can you develop the wisdom necessary to be sad all the time

I highly recommend adding fries to your bean and cheese burritos if you don’t mind a carb bomb 🙂‍↕️

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A movie poster that shows a plane crashed into the ocean with a large shark coming up from the water in the foreground. “NO WAY UP” is in the center of the image

I’m eating GARLIC BREAD & this awful shark movie that I’ve been waiting to watch all year just showed up on Hulu right in time for tonight so that’s like a 25% reduction in depression for the rest of the day

At least until I start this up & am forced to endure yet another stupid decision I’ve made

That’s a great point! Lots of fascinating info you can glean about your habits and interests. I love that you have a spreadsheet!

That’s still a fuckton of one shots lol but hey, whatever works hahaha

That’s INSANE but good for you! (?)

getting hyped for The Green Knight tonight ✨ it’s so incredibly gorgeous, I can’t wait to see it on the big screen again

my enemy is seducing me and im into it

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it’s the most wonderful time of the year:

standing behind a barely living elderly woman with a wet cough in the grocery store checkout line

A man is on his knees on a doorstep holding out a pair of clown shoes with the caption “your shoes madam”

I FINALLY bought some new boots on a black friday sale & they finally arrived &, naturally, they’re too small for my stupidly large feet

Idk why I keep thinking that I’ll be able to buy anything but men’s shoes when I’ve found only one pair of women’s shoes that fit in literally like a decade lmao

this is sooo rad!!!

THIS IS SO FKN RAD ARE YOU KIDDING ME

Ahhhh he looks so soft 🥹

in other news, I’ve finally begun to seriously work on chapter 28 again!

I’ve really missed writing Jam & Elli so the break was successful.

hopefully it’ll be done within the next few days & then I can return to existing in my sphere of anxiety as I wait to see if anyone boos me out of existence

the last time I sobbed thru a packed movie was EEAAO and it was so difficult to keep quiet. I felt so bad.

the last time I sobbed thru a movie at the theater was All of Us Strangers but I was the only one in the theater so I was able to loudly ugly weep which was fantastic

Anyway, I cry a lot :)))

A close up of a black and white cat’s face with the text “she has 97 mental illnesses and is banned from most public spaces 💔”

the good news: I’m going to see Interstellar in imax tomorrow!

the bad news: I am going to be a weepy MESS for nearly 3 hours & am surrounded by people & don’t want to ruin their time

my depression is ✨THRIVING✨ rn so it’s gonna be ugly. I’ll probably start crying as soon as it starts like a BOZO

Solidarity in sleepiness. I hope you do too 🖤