RadiantsInATrenchcoat🏳️‍⚧️

So someone reminded me that the ContraPoints Shame video exists and uhh... I took notes on what applies to me. This is literally just from the middle section of the video. Holy shit the accuracy. Fuck

It's actually a huge revelation for me and I'm still unpacking and processing a lot of it and the implications, but I also have a sense of "rightness" that I haven't felt since realising I'm trans

Also I nearly started crying at work last night because pretty women exist so that's fun

Seriously though, turns out I'd internalised a lot of compulsory heterosexuality and feeling like I needed to perform attraction to men to be validated in my gender, mixed with a dash of trauma and a pinch of emotional repression. Strip that away I'm three sapphic disaster racoons in a trenchcoat

Okay I know I kinda just vanished, and then come back to drop that last post without warning but I have a good excuse I swear!

I was failing to sleep. But I'm medicated now. Plz forgive me

Chat... I think I might actually just be a lesbian

Love mine. Hardly ever fly it, but love it nonetheless

Sadly this was only once. I hate being a light sleeper. Every noise outside my carefully curated sound bubble wakes me up

It's so nice successfully waking up at an appropriate time for my work shift instead of 12+ hours early

“not all men”

you’re right, Garrus Vakarian would never.

Well the matrix is done. Last step is making sure the correct sources are going to the right inputs, and the right outputs are going to the right endpoints. Integrating the laptop into the network let's me offload some of the work the stream PC is doing to free up resources for other stream tasks

2025 Yamaha R3. This dust is all from a light sprinkle while I was riding to work the other day

I'm still working on it btw. The empty sections aren't nothing, I just haven't filled them in yet

Starting to fix my stream audio routing when the sudden realisation hits that I've accidentally ended up with a 24×24 routing matrix that I now need to make sense of. Made worse by it being (I think?) three dimensional (the white segments are out-in network routing rather than in-out local)

HALP! 😭

Excuse the dust, Melbourne rain just leaves that everywhere

Oh I forgot! I hit 666km on my new motorcycle the other day

It's fun making tech talk to each other. I can wake up and check my PC's from my phone, then use that PC to check another PC, then use that PC to check another PC, then use that PC to check...

Oops, recursion

I've fixed the buttons issue, have hopes for the network drops being resolved, and just need to fix my audio routing and lighting. Hopefully it won't take too long, but I have to do it around my work schedule. Some of it I can work on remotely during downtime, but most I can't

🤞Soon™

So just an update on what's been happening with my streams: I've been having a bunch of tech problems including my home network dropping in and out constantly, my phone (which I'd been using for my stream control buttons) touch sensors going haywire, and audio routing getting messed up (1/2)

X-ray and ultrasound on my shoulder today. Time to find out what damage I did to it by getting into a fight between a gutter and my front motorcycle tire

Yay! My phone works properly again! I can use this app again!

You always wanted a loveseat in your hangar right? Right?

Clearly we need a new loveseat

How I arrived on BlueSky

I do enjoy my Peregrine. Great lowflier, but a very different flight style to most popular lowflying ships. Needing a lot more pre-nose and S-tier speed control to contend, and being less of a stunt flier has slowed its uptake in the lowflying community

Hold them, duh

This means calling them nazis is a double edged sword: on one hand, they need to be called out on it and face the social consequences. On the other, they get off on it, and it plays into what they want: a way to victim blame - "you keep calling me a nazi so it's your fault when I become one"

Not who you asked, but I'm pretty sure it's because they haven't dropped the pretense of being the good guys. There's still *some* stigma around being a nazi, and they haven't decided they have enough power to fully mask off yet. Guarantee in private they're proud of it. Basically: it's an act