Marina Valenheart 🌺💚💖

which is why she attached to alisaie so hard, ali's the first and only npc to consistently stop and directly ask how wol is holding up

in awe of her crush, sure, but for a deeply struggling wol she's a vital lifeline in the face of the msq trauma grinder

marina's core theme is "what if wol isn't okay actually", and broadly exploring invisible disability

by nature of being an mmorpg, the main quest can't help but railroad her into things she doesn't want to do, and my writing explores what that does to a person over time without someone to lean on

currently the mood rn

おめかしアリゼーKAWAII

tesleen valenheart is born a few years after the end of dawntrail, with marina firmly retired and alisaie starting to work her way up the adventurers guild

she wants to be a chirurgeon when she grows up, but her mothers' wanderlust is genetic and she eventually studies to be a white mage instead

most of the time i annoy the hells out of her, but alisaie does love me dearly

even after she's had her fancy feast she'll come back to bed to cuddle until i'm ready to get up

you are why i am alive, my dear alisaie

thunk not wrong, but thunk not have to call me out like that 😳

short hair elder alisaie nation rise up

something something maidens something battle scars 😭💕

alisaie misses me already

Makoto Kino and Ami Mizuno sleeping together #myart

She protects
#makoami

some additional pictures from the station

cta running a 1920s train for their 78th anniversary today, surprisingly quiet compared to the normal rolling stock

also unsurprisingly packed to bursting, my lunch break isn't long enough nor my social battery charged enough to check out the interior

ah well, happy birthday cta

ゼ

when you're fighting for your life not to be The Downer but there's no distraction strong enough to stop the horrors from invading your mind

It gets a little worse every day but today it got A Lot Worse all at once. A friend mentioned the phrase to me 'dont die with your art inside you' and I always took it to mean just don't lose track and give up, but now there's a certain dark urgency to it. Gotta get a move on because shit is BLEAK.

the crystal exarch pulled the twins at the worst possible moment, they stay shorter than normal (taller than marina) when they should've sprouted within the year

tesleen's conception involves some undefined aetheric process that kicks the sprouting into gear, so they're finally *tall* tall in 1590

marina was born in 1561, three weeks after the twins

the time bubble is rather smeared out now, centered around either her late 20s/early 30s (dawntrail ended 1587) or her mid/late 40s (with tesleen out adventuring)

so split the difference and say it's 1589 and she's 28

alisaie's 29, First math 🤷‍♀️

right there with you...

poor air circulation in the office is not helping with either one, i need my cat on my desk asap

Four-page comic. Page 1 Top section: Narration text says, “Every day I wake up convinced I’ll finally do the thing I’ve been wanting to do for so long, but I’ve gotten so tired of waking up every day knowing that nothing has changed.” Panels show lists of undone tasks: - Narration: “Another day and I still haven’t cleaned the table so I can cook, still haven’t filled out important forms, haven’t thrown out the spoiled food I put next to the fridge a week ago, still haven’t unpacked the luggage from 9 months ago, and I lost a letter and am too ashamed to ask for a copy.” Final narration on this page: “I do the wrong tasks, don’t finish, or get paralyzed before being able to start anything.”

Page 2 Panels contrast misconceptions with reality. Narration: “When I can’t do something, it’s not: ‘It’s not fun so I won’t bother.’ Or ‘I don’t wanna do it.’” Next panels show dread. Narration: “It’s more like I feel dread and my body yells back at me: ‘You won’t feel rewarded for this, so you’re wasting survival resources and energy.’ ‘DON’T DO IT.’” Further narration: “I can’t even explain why I don’t do things, so people don’t believe me. I’ve started isolating because gathering my courage to ask for help and being shamed hurts so much.” Closing narration on this page: “It feels like I’m a ghost, unable to make meaningful changes to my life. An existence unseen and unheard, having to hide so as not to trouble others.”

Page 3 Narration continues: “All I can do is watch as my life falls apart in slow-motion, as people watch and ask themselves ‘why doesn’t she just do something?’” Further narration: “Every day I would fight myself to great exhaustion without any result to show for it. So after a while, I gave up fighting. Not because I had a negative mindset, but as a result of my experiences.” Someone scolds: “No one is coming to save you, stop being so self-defeating!” Shift in tone: Narration asks, “Do you know what saved my life?” A supportive voice replies: “I believe you. I will help you.”

Page 4 Narration: “It’s not that no one has helped me before, but no one believed how much help I needed.” Someone else says dismissively: “I’m sure you can do it!” Narration continues: “And it’s not that I can’t do anything – I can do many things that others can’t. It’s just that where my mother needs help using the PC, I need help organizing my day.” Further narration: “People aren’t made to survive alone – without any help.” Closing text: “I am still my own person. I have my own morals, agency, hopes and dreams. And if I have a robust scaffolding to work on, I can not only live, but thrive.”

Sometimes I feel like a ghost, unable to make meaningful changes to my life, while not being believed when I tell people how much I try.

it's not a fun time for anyone

turns out hanging the fate of all life in the universe on a depressed, battered, self-destructive catgirl is, while successful in the short term, a bad idea

archiveofourown.org/works/386618...

marina's very much an insert inasmuch as writing her is like slipping on a pair of shoes — effortless and requires minimal translation from just being Me in a situation

she's not 1:1 me, but her history echoes my life and she's 100% a wish fulfillment outlet

she has someone to kiss her goodnight 🥲

this poor angel is so shy about showing skin

someone help her

#wolisaie 💚❤️

from the notes of archon alisaie valenheart, on the subject of the effects of overaspected aether

from the notes of archon alisaie valenheart, on the subject of the effects of overaspected aether

ah yes, burger dipping sauces, now you know you're getting a fancy burger

i'm growing attached to taking a purple/brown halfway home rather than being crammed into red the whole way

this is a much nicer way to end an interminable workday

"They are our worlds, filled with *light, and love*, and hope."

*Fabula Luminis et Amoris*
Tales of Light and Love

marina brings the light, alisaie brings the love

Home alone

#noai #noaiart #art #artist #artwork #myart #myartwork #ownart #artofbsky #artistofbsky #digitalart #digitalartist #digitalpainting #digitalillustration #clipstudiopaint #csp
#fanart #ffxiv #ff14 #elezen #alisaie #scions #comic