mafuyu

i dont interact with people
i dont want to interact with people
i end up getting hurt bc i dont interact wtih people

being alive is torture

the ptsd flashback situation stopped for a good couple of months and now theyre back... why

why am i such a ho

others in this brain can but i cant

im unable to crush on fictional characters

why cant i be normal

i love pretending i know anything about regular human emotions i basically have none myself

im so paranoid

mwshaha pls no psychosis any time soon pls

i forgot to take my meds and im high oh no no no im so paranoid,,, i keep hearing things,,,

its good that i tweet a lot bc i rely on my own social medias + discord chats to realise what oomf does during her fronts

little dude who is constantly zooted

might be tmi but when im
extremely dissociative i dont even realise theres blood gushing down my legs and im bleeding

i want to leave this site and remake and only be around that have good vibes

age gap relationships trigger me because i was groomed multiple times and people dont realise im not trying to be woke or whatever i just dont want to be triggered and spiral over it. it's so selfish.

ive accepted a lot of people are proship in secret and anti in public im not stupid ive been in fandom for over a decade. i personally dont care atp as long as i dont see it on main im not a cop. i just dont wish to be triggered.

it boggles my mind that people are public about it though

had to block on this acc too but the first post i see from little misogynist is a pick me post im cryinggg

saw a whole ass man refer to twice members as his 9 wives i had to block instantly ew ew ew eww

ohh my godd i got triggered oopsie!!

okaay i got maybe 6-7 hours of combined sleep?? i have no idea what to do now zzz

no softblocks either

this site not having locked accounts is the baneee of my online existence

i have a lot i want to say about the massive decline with hoyoverse character writing but i dont think ill air it out on a public platform 😭

do you ever wake up and go erm i would not post that

this world sucks i want columbina and nicole

life is so miserable and i have no money

i really do want to end my life. everyone else in my family gets to be happy while i suffer

my grandma cant speak like a normal person she yells at the top of the lungs to the point my noise cancelling headphones dont work.. i have to blast music so loudly...

last time i complained about her yelling i got hit hahhahaa

i cant wait until i can force switches again.. i hate that im the alter that has to deal with abuse