fat cat irl

i feel so fucking miserable.

then we need to get 2 hazardous trees near the house cut this weekend. that alone will be $200.

there's a medical bill i need to pay until the 14th. costs the same as my monthly tax. then there's my medication because i can't not take them anymore because my health is ✨ degrading fast ✨
then i have to pay my accountant next week, get a new monthly pass so i can even travel to the clinic.

i need to help out but i don't have this kind of money. also in the middle of a burnout so the last thing i want is opening c0mms again but that's what i'm gonna have to do. this sucks.

of course we're getting big bills when mom's account is locked

getting real fucking tired of people not tagging their nsfw

it makes me so uncomfortable when i can tell someone has those notifs that tell them whenever i post something turned on. doubly so when they only interact with my personal posts and not my art/general stuff.

(bad, mostly)

my bday is in less than a month and idk how to feel about it

cries........ please i hope this sale lasts until i have some extra monies

it's also more expensive than a regular appt but idc anymore, it's so hard to book appts so i'll just leave it that way. don't wanna wait until december. also not looking forward to paying $150 (+whatever the extra exams cost) but it is what it is

finally got my dr's appt confirmation email and it says first first appointment?? girl this is not the first time i go to your clinic???? maybe it's just bc it's been a while since my last appt with this dr.... idk but at least i managed to book one.

okay survived the conversation whew lol

me @ myself every day

every time i share anything about them i just feel immense shame. i used to be... not like this. what do i need to do to go back to those times

i wish i could be as unapologetically insane (positive) about my ocs as others

they might say they love it but when their tone is just... not convincing.... idk.

i hate it when i'm not 100% sure if someone likes the gift i got them.

i'm lucky there are so many people who are interested in what i create, but you need to love the art only you will see. not just the results, the process too.

you can always tell when something was made with love & the creator actually enjoyed working on it

anyway. love your own art, even if no one else does

HJKFGDSGSDG THE COMPATIBILITY........ incredible.....

anyway i got this for oscar :V

(link: spankpls.com/bdsm-test)

nvm found it lol. discover tab was useful for once

google is not helping

love that no one posts the link to that quiz under their posts lmfao

i was tempted to do that 1 like 1 opinion thing but i realized if i said the things i want to say, people would cancel me for life lmfaooo

i just think it's funny how-- (i'm escorted out of the room before i could say anything and cause trouble)

going back to bed is what i'm gonna do about it

i feel so left behind and i don't know what to do about it

oh chat we're doing so bad