AssignedChaos.bsky.social

Solange man nicht dran denkt, dass wir in 3 Wochen vermutlich eine faschistische Regierung bekommen, weil Union-Wählenden literally alles egal ist und die Hälfte des Landes einfach Rassismus und sonstige Menschenfeindlichkeit richtig geil findet, geht's eigentlich.

Knowing it's heavily under diagnosed and easily dismissed and yet I thought swallowing painkillers like gummy bears every month is totally normal and fine.

Can't believe this really happened but I asked a doctor for painkillers for my period cramps and she immediately said "you know that the amount you need is not normal, right? This could be endometriosis, you should let it check."

Here I am, knowing about the existence of this illness, knowing

A pictue showing two people sitting on a couch in cosplay for Gideon and Harrow from The Locked Tomb. Gideon with red hair, pilot sunglasses, Harrow a smaller person. Both wear black clothes and white skull makeups, Harrow's is much more imaculate. Gideon's sword looks like it is in my body while she holds it, Harrow rests her foot on my "dead" body. I'm a fat guy playing dead on the floor in black jeans and a sweater.

tfw they tell you 'me and my necromancer saw you from across the bar and we'd like one of your bones' and too late you understand they're literal.

(thanks for letting me play assistant for the cosplay day, @jordaninberlin.bsky.social @assignedchaos.bsky.social )

"tits or ass"? bro, the undeniable passion she has for her special interests in the face of a world which tries to kill that spark

Me *barely being able to walk from last night* in group therapy:
Yeah I think my depression is cured.

We are not on any level to call each other partners etc, but being called their boyfriend made me smile so hard.

Love dating other enbies. Had a date with someone I'm casually seeing last night. I usually dress up very girly when I see them, because I love being girly with them. I told them "sorry, I felt full boy mode tonight" and they got excited and said "oh you are my boyfriend now!"

Me being dramatic? Never!

*Walks away from his place listening to 'your woman' by White Town*

Yesterday I went with a friend to a Natural History Museum and I was able to drop some of my absolute favorite fun facts ever. Like the Great Emu Wars and Tarantulas being assigned male at death. Such a sweet feeling when people don't know this yet.

Ich erlaubte meinen Lügen, zu meiner Wahrheit zu werden. - Einer Der Guten Clara und er hatten auf der Spielplatzbank gesessen, als er entschieden hatte, dass sie seine und er ihre Zukunft war. - Die Uniform trauriger Jungen Er verstand, dass Moritz’ Eltern ihm ausgetrieben hatten, die Furcht und Scham und Trauer, die sie ihm eingetrieben hatten, auf sein Gesicht zu lassen. - undurchgestrichen Bluesky: erichkrullwrites.bsky.social Instagram: erichkrullwrites

Ein paar Lieblingssätze...

From Ursula K. Le Guin's book "The Language of the Night": Anyway, meeting writers is always so disappointing. I got over wanting to meet live writers quite a long time ago. There is this terrific book that has changed your life, and then you meet the author, and he has shifty eyes and funny shoes and he won't talk about anything except the injustice of the United States income tax structure toward people with fluctuating income, or how to breed Black Angus cows, or something.

No no it's fine Ursula you're not wrong actually

And yes he is fulfilling the bare minimum by having asked me if it's ok with me (omg yes) and me asking if he would be ok with somebody asking if he likes to f*ck dudes (yes), so don't worry.

We all know that generally calling people of all genders 'dude' is cringe. But me, a very femme presenting agender am getting gender euphoria I didn't even know was possible from this Aussie guy constantly calling me 'dude'.

The other night I had somebody do the most mental gymnastics to justify that I, an Aries, am still compatible with the guy I'm seeing, who happens to be a Virgo. Yeah I'm sure it's because I have so much water in my moon and sun and definitely not because we are just very, very horny for each other.

Selfie of me having a fresh hair cut, a trimmed beard and wearing a nice shirt all at once on a street in Berlin

a collage of a grey tone photo of a masc looking human without clothes from above the breast. In front of them are a piece of wood and several ocean animals that cover most of them up, including the eyes and behind them is earth from space.

a big green balloon dinosaur (whose name is Vlad, btw) on my messy couch.

Book: They Eyes Are The Best Part by Monika Kim with a wide open mouth with an eyeball in it as cover picture.

Had a fabulous (2 weeks early) birthday yesterday.

Visited horny monsters with @assignedchaos.bsky.social , they gave me one of their amazing collages, pulled off a reverse heist with @jordaninberlin.bsky.social , got a dinosaur, a cook book and then we all hang out with absinthe and Klaus Kinski.

I'm watching you.

Several earrings professionally TM packed in little plastic bags. The earrings show boobs and vulvas of all sizes, shapes, skin colours and variations and are made out of fimo clay. Some of them have little nipple piercings.

Made a new batch of boob and vulva earrings and am very proud of how productive I was yesterday.

Had the guy I just started seeing for the first time over in my flat the other night. There was so much sexual tension between us. And what is the very first thing I show him? Right, all my painted minis. He was absolutely interested and we took our sweet time to go through all of them.

I really always try to not mistake people working somewhere and being nice for flirting but this beautiful woman at the art supply store just a) complimented me on what I bought only to then b) compliment the colours I'm wearing today and omg my praise kink.

The first thing I read this morning was a person I'm seeing writing lovely things about our Friday night together. I didn't think this could be topped at all. And then I learned that Trump got shot.

I'm really into dating simulators. you know like bg3?

Don't know. Kinda homophobic of you to break up with me during pride month.

I wanted to find out if 'polycule' is also the "correct" German term for a story.

First reaction to the google result that no, 'Polykül' would be correct was thinking, nah, no way, I'll use the English term.

Second reaction, though: That's too funny and specific, I'll 100% use Polykül 😂

Summer 1979, Western Germany. It was supposed to be a fun evening: A garden party for proud owners of brand new apartments. The bratwursts were delicious, the beer cold, and Peter Maffay played on the radio. But a few among them wore the cloak of petty bourgeoisie only to hide something even worse. They had let something into this world that was obscene to reality itself. And tonight it would feast on sacrifices stuffed with bratwurst and beer. Whatever happened that fateful summer was known to few. Adults, ever so careful to ignore where the puzzle pieces of reality don’t fit together, swiftly moved from whispered rumors to lies of rationality. “Shady workmanship. Italian work crews is what I heard!” - “No, RAF terrorists exploded a bomb when the police found them.” - “It wasn’t terrorists, it was an old world war 2 bomb.” Alt text continued in next (blank) picture!

But the early rumors lived on as ghost stories, told by children in the light of flashlights. No adult missed a chance to press how verboten it was to enter the walled off area. But it was just a matter of time. In 1991, propelled by Wind of change on their discmans and peer pressure at their elementary school, a group of friends decides to dare. But this is a tale about that which breaks minds and melts eyes, not an episode of The Three Investigators. So let's hope they only died, because the alternative may be worse. The Obscenity that was born in 1979 was fed again in 2002. A group of friends found that they had money for Speed and X, or to get into the club, but not both. A quicker decision was never made. X is fun in or outside a club, but clubs aren’t much fun without X. They had so many ideas, spoken about so quickly, with such certainty of both their quality and that they would totally have them without illegal pharmaceuticals. Alt Text continued in next (blank) picture!

Through pure bad luck, some stories came up that they remembered from childhood. Even worse luck: they were close enough to act on their newest, brilliant idea. My guess would be it was the last idea they ever had. But at least I can put King of my Castle and Sunglasses at Night on the playlist for this session. That night in 2002 changed something. Left proof just on this side of being undeniable, so instead of denying the collective panic of all things unexplained tried to forget. But in 2024 a group of “professional supernatural investigators” (friends who had a podcast about ghosts no one listened to) found “worrying textual evidence” (a deleted Reddit post), that “made it very clear” (it didn’t) that whatever began in 1979 would “come to its conclusion” in 2024 (only true accidentally). Teched out with useless gizmos and ready to become ghost hunter celebrities, those fools might be our last chance.

Some early teasers for the four points in time the players will experience.

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I’ve some open slots for a series of Call Of Cthulhu one-shots in July! Each one-shot will have different players, but be part of the same, decade long horror story. Decisions by the group that plays the first one-shot will influence the experience of the second one that will be set 10 years later. And so on. Each session will be around 3.5 hours. We will play online via Zoom and Roll20. Who’s in which groups and at what time that group plays depends on the scheduling. I will ask everyone for their availability and then mix people together to make it work. Other important information: Nope, you don’t need any experience with ttrpg and/or Call of Cthulhu You’ll get to choose from a pool of pre-build characters We will use X-Card and a version of Lines & Veils as the minimal default. If any player has additional safety tools that would make them comfortable, I will integrate them Alt text continued in next (blank) picture

If there’s more interest than I have player slots I’ll prioritize people I know. Queer players and generally people from marginalized communities will also get in first. Another consideration will be to choose ttrpg newbies when possible. (the following part is bold!) I will lie (and maybe already did) to you about some parts of the in-game setup so your characters can find out they had some wrong assumptions. (This meta element will not influence anything connected to safety tools, scheduling etc.)

*creepy children's voice*: Wanna play with me?

There are 8 (out of 16) slots left in the four Call of Cthulhu one-shots I'll do in July.

If you're interested and you think you'd be a good fit, let me know and give me your discord handle, so I can contact you.

Ask if you have any questions!

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Hey, allies! 🏳️‍⚧️

For Trans Day of Visibility, you should buy books by trans authors. Buy two copies, one for yourself and one for a trans friend! 📚

You are also obligated to share this post. I don’t make the TDoV rules, I only enforce them. 😘