ciela

if "kids can't consent to sex with adults because adults hold a power position over them" is tripping you up then i don't fucking trust you around them

me when i wing it: i wing it, im winging it, i know very little of this topic or task

its the most difficult thing when you see people you like (or have liked) crashing out when you know they're in the wrong like objectively
like girl, sure, go off if you want to, just be aware you're digging an even bigger hole

Did you know?!

Trans girl fashion is fine actually, you just hate gay ppl

"music to regress to playlist" but instead its just a series of tape recordings of orchestral music like pachebels canon in d

Being reminded that “puppies don’t speak” while I’m halfway through a sentence to the barista and being forced to bark in front of everyone

y'know if you call someone cute and they smile and blush and indicate as such you can actually keep calling them cute

thats wild to me like wdym i can genuinely just tell you the truth about how youre affecting me and youll get flustered and turned on youre gonna make me bite you

my past is telling me flannels, but my future seems destined for boho auntie status

avoidance is a form of rumination. if you are trying to avoid & repress specific stress in your life, then you’re still fixating on it.

displacing that into wrath towards people who are self-actualizing instead of addressing your own desires will only make you more anxious, isolated, & miserable.

it was the best option i believed i had, and played out successfully. im not dead, im in a much better headspace than i once was, and ive come out to my family.

it helps me be more compassionate to myself. also, epigenetics shit because i know it helps my 60yo dad whos smoked since hs

low key i did start using cannabis to cope with the aftermath of attempting to die and losing my only close friend because of things related to it

i just wanted to feel anything other than what i was feeling at the time. it helped me get through it. that was back in october

fuckinggggrreaaaaalll holy shit to be pushed up against a wall and kissed,,, being the sole focus of alll that pleasure and tension,,, the sound ojf the world fading into the background, replaced by this soundtrack of ggentle kisses and mmoansss neeeeeed need need
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dude i’m so fucking tired of this i just want to learn how to jack off and all the people in the instruction videos keep calling me a faggot, do you know if linus tech tips made one i could watch?

i stay true to myself and myself is honestly an idiot so if you do call me a dumbass fair enough

hold on im confused
how do you have a "bad reaction" to "a specific hrt"
literally everything involved are hormones that are present in natural amounts in your system even prior to starting

very few understand but sometimes its just best to pull out the apex 2015 salty suite chillindude post match quote

i wanna look like a gal who lives in the basement but in like, a cool way

i woke up from my nap and there’s not soft kisses on my neck,, why should i even be awake

straight up like if anyone asks me to show anyone any of my serious writing 9/10 it's getting clocked as chat gpt, shit has em dashes and alliteration everywhere
like girl, im not using a fucking ai im just autistic god fucking damn

people do understand that the "not just ___ but, ___" type bullshit that people use to suss out LLM usage is just a trope that had like, large usage before being sucked into LLMs, right?

photo of ciela in black thigh highs with triple white striped ends, and a green & black tartan/flannel/plaid skirt

y'know im ngl this is my peak photo i cant get better than this

let a gal be cringe, the fact that you hate your early transition self should not have any effect on others and should not lead you to burden others with living with the same mindset especially that early on in their transition.

your experience is not universal. neither is mine.

idk if this is a hot take but i am asking certain people to be chill and not give the baby trans gals brain worms about not dressing femme in the right way

i think calling the sexy bits/genitals "sex" despite how old fashioned/fanfiction pilled it is is really cute and kinda hot

in writing and irl
and its nonspecific, it could be literally anything, any presentation of genitalia whatsoever and i think thats cool :)

im single but that doesnt mean i cant post real shit and manifest or whatever 😖

girls who use ":3" are interested in cuddling up by a fireplace with some hot cocoa and freaky rough sex

being yours isnt a simple idle thing, its something i take with a great degree of care. feeling your lips on mine, intoxicated by your touch, im reminded of my purpose.

joy. happiness. pleasure.

im pretty :3