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no its this one actually!

broke 200 followers! wowie
thanks everyone, i wish i had more to say woopz

album i've been working on for a long-ass time now is finally out on SoundCloud and Bandcamp. gonna try to get it on Spotify but SC is being weird rn. anyway, here

soundcloud.com/metafract/se...
astroblur.bandcamp.com/album/archan...

i still CANT BELIEVE there's a site that tells you everyone who has you blocked on here.

i need more schizospec friends. people who arent that tend to make fun of me

sentiment's appreciated + ultimately it was because of my tendency to go on for ages and typing walls of text on discord so i kinda get why. its just better i hide from those people even if i get why i'm made fun of

IDM time! (last vid upload was the wrong one, my fault)

all my life being shit on for talking too much has culminated in me just hiding. i like it better this way lowkey

being a lowbie feels kinda freeing. having 2,000+ followers on twitter was fun up til i started just having low engagement all round, the number i got now feels way more appropriate for how much i'm also interacted with or. something like that

200 on bluesky i might Talk more than A LITTLE!!!!!!!!!!

this is the best one so far, i think.

finally updated my top 64.

onirismo e estações desbotadas (middle version) original track: https://sonhostomamconta.bandcamp.com/track/onirismo-e-esta-es-desbotadas there's a specific part of the original song with these like bass volume dropouts that i adore and relisten t

i love taking parts of songs and turning them into whole remixes. that being said, soundcloud.com/metafract/on...

going back under my rock again ig.

either staking myself as the fucking antichrist (practically) or swearing that everyone's out to get me. black and white thinking is such a waste of time. i wish i figured this out sooner.

but i guess i was never the worst shithead ever, i'm still not, and that people who aren't here to see me develop meaningfully for fuckin once at a less gradual speed (due to living situation mostly tbh) just aren't here and that there isn't shit else to it much as i'm just used to

it's also gonna just hurt my head for a long time that i also made my life worse by not wisening up sooner much as shit was still rough enough in my kid years for my judgment to be clouded cause of how i dealt with what was happening to/around me and how that Was not healthy.

feels like hubris is gonna be the death of me. i spent way too long just figuring the problem was any-fucking-thing but myself regarding a lot of shit i lost out on. i guess i can't pretend like i was just making my life worse on purpose for no reason

every year i become less disordered but its like every year prior feels all the worse to recollect. i expected this at least.

whoda thunk it that perfectionism and omega bullshit levels of criticality at a young age makes you debilitatingly hindered in taking criticism! for my next trick i will Eat cement

man i just said bullshit and logged off. i think i've been too unpleasant within and kind of including my post-moving-out arc and i need to stop being unpleasant.

furthermore,

back doing GFX again.

Starfy stuf

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// warning for eyestrain ( I like colours bit too much... )

NULL!! THISISSO AWESOME THEY'RE AWESOME, YEAH!!!
/ #regretevator #null #art #digitalart /

long.... hair.........

nny in more lameass shirts (prt 2) ((feel free to send more shirts btw this is funzies))
#jthm #johnnythehomicidalmaniac

im not very good at drawing ship adjacent art
#jthm

HD remaster