Delusional Newt

In those three gestures, the tomato was the only one that was *for* me, without me having to ask for anything.

Yeah, the bar is in hell, that's how low it is, but this tomato, this shitty, unripe, supermarket tomato, that's what cemented my attraction to this man.

Too bad I'm a giant coward.

The last guy I kissed, he bought me a tomato. Because weeks earlier, we talked about food and how I liked tomatoes in a certain type of sandwich, unlike him. He had planned to make those sandwiches for dinner, so he bought a single tomato. For me. And he probably didn't even see it as romantic.

The first one did that because it's a gesture, it's Romantic™ and it makes him look good.
The second one just couldn't think of something else to get me for my birthday. And I'm the one who brought up the link between Batman and us, he had forgotten.

My first real relationship bought fake rose petals to scatter on the bed for Valentine's day. My second partner bought me a Batman graphic novel for my first birthday with him because we met on a stream of mine where I was struggling with Arkham Asylum.

Hm. Is he oblivious as fuck or trying to let me down gently? I AM CONFUSION.

Dude, you blew my mind by talking smartly at me, the least you could do is offer to blow my back out to let my brain rest SMH

I love Bluesky, but the app needs to be clearer when you reply to someone.

Did I just accidentally dunk on a guy who was sealioning about AI from an account where I show my tits and repost porn? Yes, kill me please. (I managed to delete it real fast but still xD)

Twitch Twitch is the world

Don't Go in there Girl!| Dead by Daylight Stream

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a man is standing on a boat with the words `` this is why we can 't have nice things '' written below him . ALT: a man is standing on a boat with the words `` this is why we can 't have nice things '' written below him .

Everything sucks, world is big and scary and what could fix me temporarily is some hours with my mouth between the thighs of some people I know, but even that I can't have even if they'd be willing, on account of healing holes in my gums where teeth used to be.

When you just wanna be held and kissed by them [2 catgirls laying in bed kissing]

🫂🫂🫂

A picture of myself wearing thigh high socks, and a skirt. A little bit of thigh is peaking out from the skirt.

Not sure if #softsunday is a thing but how about you rest your head here and we can watch a six hour long video about people we've never heard about.

Oh, sorry I'm obsessed with you, you showed me basic human decency once.

Trying really hard to not do a social fuck up that is pretty much guaranteed to humiliate me, god do I hate being a person.

Yeah, I can imagine all too well how your poor sinuses feel 😭

oh noes D: Inm petting your forehead gently in spirit, I hope the headache goes away soon :(

But you did it! And that's awesome!

(Also, you might be tired but you look gorgeous and damn, your skin looks so good, daily routine is working /o/)

I have zero wisdom to share, but I'm sending you thoughts of hugs.

(And I have even less wisdom to share about self-isolating because ooh boy am I fucking up with that :') )

a black and white photo of a dam with the words " dam breaking " below it ALT: a black and white photo of a dam with the words " dam breaking " below it

Cats don't wonder if they're annoying (they know they are and they don't care). They don't hesitate to interact with their people because they're scared that they're annoying them (which leads to someone ending up being actually annoying because they let all the badness accumulate inside them)

And there's so many cool stuff too! Like, iridescent, chrome and holo powders, aaaaah

Oh, and no, this isn't about one single person.

Batman snapping a gun in two. And saying: “This is the weapon of the ENEMY. We do not NEED it. We will not USE it.”

And this again (and as often as necessary) re: AI:

Listen, it was either "getting weepy and introspective on alt" or finding someone to show my tits to to feel something good even if it's fake, so, sorry for this but it's better than the alternative:')

I'm just. Tired. Gonna die alone because not even my family can see and love the real me and my only hope is that I'll get reincarnated as a beloved cat or something. Or someone with good parents and/or a functional enough brain.

and pieces from those around us! But I can't find the base of me, beyond anger. Pretty much all I'm sure of about myself is anger and spite. It's hard to know the parts of me that feel joy.

Feels like being friends with me is being friends with a creature that is part void and mirror. I have such a shaky sense of self because I was never allowed to build one, so I end up taking parts of others because I like them. They don't always fit. And it's fine, I know that we're made up of bits

I seriously hate being a person. How much do I get taken advantage of and how much is simple misunderstanding? Why and how can I have so much empathy but struggle to understand what people mean that badly?

How do I keep people, how do I learn to be a good friend?

I'm getting general anesthesia for my teeth on the 31st. In the little instructions pamphlet, they say, highlighted in red : DO NOT TAKE ANY IMPORTANT DECISION IN THE 24 HOURS FOLLOWING ANESTHESIA

Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"

(noooo, I didn't forget to switch accounts to like this x) )

Ngl, I think that would fix me.

Hey, fortunately things got decided for me and I couldn't have done the thing even if I wanted!

Newt challenge "stop doing things that hurt your stupid heart in various ways", difficulty level : impossible, I'm afraid.