Slackomorph

GO GO GADGET CATCH LUPIN!
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Slackomorph - Twitch I wrote that comic about the zombie ninja and sometimes I play games. Stream assets by Scarffles on Bluesky, model by MegaJawzz, also on Bluesky.

Would Dark Aether be a shoot Ing gallery? (i'm sorry...) #metroid #metroidprime2 #twitch #live #streaming #lgbtqia #envtuber

I find that depression is a very isolating and selfish thing. It's one of the most terrifying things I've experienced, and there's a lingering fear even after recovery that I've alienated the people around me. Everything feels like an empty platitude, like they're just being nice and waiting it out.

And then I need to get a NEW psych! Which means I need to schedule an appointment months out.

And even if I DID schedule those appointments closer just as a check-in to stay on as a patient, there's the matter of... Y'know, the $300.

Return to "Really just ain't no winning."

Astute observation, nobody! This IS something to talk to a therapist about!

I refer you to my previous post about needing $300.

See, every psych I've spoken to has recommended I schedule appointments "as needed." And then I go too long without needing an appointment and time out as a patient.

Unprompted depression update:

I've reached the point of having Ominous Thoughts. At best, mentioning them makes people worry about me because it seems like I'm hinting at something. At worst, people understand I'm not hinting at anything, but I kill the vibe.

Really just ain't no winning.

If I wake up in time tomorrow, maybe I'll jump back in with some Prime 2. I've been looking for an excuse to play it, could be fun to stream. I do like me some old games...

Briefly considering getting checked out for bipolar disorder, then remembering even with insurance, I'll still need like $300 just to get in the door for a diagnosis.

For clarification, as my depressive episode slowly clears up, I do not want to stop streaming. Streaming is fun, I like doing it. I think I'm just done trying at it, at least for now. No more big plans, no more preset schedules, not for a while. It's just not worth the time and effort, really.

SPEAKING OF DEPRESSION!

Y'all know we're in one right? Like those little shorts where a guy in a 3' x 3' cardboard apartment shows you how to stretch a pound of discount sausage and a can of corn to feed a family of four for a week? That's not frugality. That's a depression. We're like, in one.

It's important to me that people understand the irony of Steam limiting the number of card drops you can get from playing TCG Simualtor, a game largely about collecting trading cards.

The desire to stream crushed by the "Why bother?" of depression.

Sometimes you get hit with depression and all you can do is say "Well, I'm about to not be fun to be around!" and ride it out. I've officially hit that point. Well, let's get this shitshow on the road! See y'all on the other side!

One part of depression that doesn't get the recognition it deserves is not being able to have a conversation about what's triggering it because you're waiting for it to pass, which only makes it worse.

Yay, spirals!

Slackomorph - Twitch Playing visual novels because I can. | !dubby !say

Switching gears to Model Employee! #modelemployee #twitch #live #streaming #lgbqia #envtuber #visualnovel

Slackomorph - Twitch I wrote that comic about the zombie ninja and sometimes I play games. Stream assets by Scarffles on Bluesky, model by MegaJawzz, also on Bluesky.

As opposed to tactile novels, I guess. #onlineobsession #twitch #live #streaming #lgbtqia #envtuber #visualnovel

Well I had to download them after Itchio came back, duh.

Madam, how is that an excuse?

Joke's on you, I got 'em all downloaded anyway.

Anyway, I got stuff needs doing, then I'm gonna be streaming a couple VNs.

Considering the spiral of depression and paranoia I can feel clawing its way into my brain goes away when I take my meds, consider this a reminder to TAKE YOUR FUCKING MEDS.

Also stay off social media until you have TAKEN YOUR FUCKING MEDS.

Like those Snickers commercials, but for mental health.

Itchio's back. Gonna at least stream those games. Feels rude not to.

Felt bad for calling the subathon the day before doing the VNs @priscillathedoll.bsky.social recommended. Figured I should at least play those, right?

Itchio said "lol nah"

I guess the upside of being depressed is I sleep more, so I can keep to a normal schedule more easily....

Yeah, think I'm just gonna call it here. Thanks to everyone who stopped by.

Twitch Twitch is the world

Another early start! Guess I'll play a game about oral hygiene or something? #mouthwashing #twitch #live #streaming #lgbtqia #envtuber #subathon #horror

Not a decision to actually make unmedicated, but I'm thinking today's gonna be the final subathon day. We'll see how I feel.

Slackomorph - Twitch I wrote that comic about the zombie ninja and sometimes I play games. Stream assets by Scarffles on Bluesky, model by MegaJawzz, also on Bluesky.

Got my meds, whoo! Starting a bit early today because who cares but also I wanna get through a bunch of little games. #scriptwelder #twitch #live #streaming #lgbtqia #envtuber #horror #halloween #subathon

Depression picks great times to hit. I'mma go take my meds and get to streaming. We're doin' pixely horror games today!

Do yourself a favor. Don't get depression.