Kurika 🏳️‍⚧️

Disclaimer: Pillow may or may not contain sword.

Schrodinger's pillow?

None of this is even remotely connected to what I intended to talk about in the first place, wth brain.

I'll just drink some water and sit here for a while.

I am tired. Very tired. And very ouchy. And every time I tell myself that I'm going to do the things I've been repressing I end up finding new ways or reasons to repress them again.

And the next person that says "just do the thing" or some variant is going to get a pillow to the face.

See? Character limits. I'm verbose as heck. Always have been. The vast majority of my posts that I don't delete and just not post on here have been highly edited so that they fit inside the character limit, with words replaced or just deleted, entire sentences restructured, the whole bit.

There is so much stuff I always want to try and talk about. If not to get input on, then at least to get it out of my head and onto text.

But Bluesky has character limits. I always feel like I'm bothering people on Discord even when assured I'm not.

I can't write in proper story format, either.

Should've had my 3-month endo visit yesterday, but he got reassigned to hospital duty the weekend before my appointment. So now I'll be seeing an entirely new endo at the same place, but not until early December.

At least they're making sure there's no interruption in my meds.

I am fascinated by the constantly fluctuating size of my areolae.

Like, my nipples are still about the same size, but always sore/hard now. But the areolae around them? It frickin' *changes* throughout the day.

When I wake up, they're 1" across, by the time I go to bed they're half that. o_o

Also like if you wanna help a trans girl out with meds, food & rent.
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a fox is standing on its hind legs in a snowy field ALT: a fox is standing on its hind legs in a snowy field

Video of Kyubii in snow:

And the vod will be there if anyone wants to watch later. Or if no one does, that's fine too. I'm not doing this for fame or fortune, that just ain't gonna happen. I'm doing it for fun and to give friends a way to watch me being weird. ^_^

But still, I got some stress out in Battlefield 2042, and I won a ranked match (and had a terribly long ranked match that ended in a draw when the game bugged out-- opponent had *hundreds* of slivers and the cascade effect every time they cast more killed the engine) and finished my daily in Arena.

Well that was entertaining, at least.

An almost four hour long stream.... that nobody watched. Except for one person who showed up, said hello, lurked for about ten minutes, and then left when I had momentary sound issues. XD

Note to self: Don't stream on Mondays. Everyone is too tired to watch.

Game Switch: Moving on to MTG Arena. I hit Platinum 4 the other day right after the new season started, should I try for higher? (Answer: No. But I probably will anyway.)

www.twitch.tv/kurika_78

Twitch Twitch is the world

Gotta lot of stress built up, let's maybe shoot a few bots in Battlefield 2042. (I do intend to play other things, really I do, but last week was a complete mess as far as getting things done. x_x )

www.twitch.tv/kurika_78

Xenomorph popping out of Operation game

I don’t think the tweezers will fix this one

...I've never actually *played* the game, but dang am I good at finding things. XD

YouTube video by Pokemon Guides How To EASILY Shiny Hunt PANSAGE, PANPOUR & PANSEAR In Pokemon Legends ZA

"the rooftop in Jaune Sector 2, particularly a rooftop west of the Justice Dojo. There, the monkeys consistently spawn in a small area, making it easy to reset their spawns for a quick hunt."

And have link to vid showing the location and a bench to use for a quick respawn:
youtu.be/9Sm_Ea-pLrw?...

Ladies, if you are looking for a trans woman in your life who is capable of doing general house and car repairs while also being capable of cooking, IT work, video games, and playing Magic and other board and card games, look no further.

I need cuddles.

Just spent an hour unclogging a damn sink.

I was supposed to go to Walmart after today's physical therapy.

Yeah, no.

I'm going to go home and melt into a small puddle of pain.

I can certainly use a hug today. 💜

The cemetery is very peaceful, very open, and much like the rest of southern Illinois, very flat.

It's next to a bunch of fields just like this one, which would usually have corn in them.

The wind is always strong here, no matter what the weather.

Sad anniversary today.

One year ago today, Mom died.

I was holding her hand when she stopped breathing. Gurgling.

In reality, Mom was effectively gone days before that. Unable to communicate, laying in bed hooked up to oxygen, barely breathing.

So I won't remember that end.

Endings suck anyway.

Screw you, Dodgers.

Or I could just chalk the night up to being just as wasted as the day and go to sleep. I spent the whole weekend feeling like crud and sleeping, why not continue into the week. x_x

Well, I was ready to start streaming some MTG Arena, but the game is acting kinda squirrely... taking ages to load up or not loading up at all, so I don't wanna risk just sitting there forever on stream for matches to load.

I guess the question now is, do I go to BF2042, or play something else?

I don't care about grey hairs in my hair, but I will aggressively pull those little buggers out of my eyebrows on sight. >.>

Maybe I'll stream tonight to make up for it. I haven't done that for two days now.

I hope your tomorrow is better too. *hugs*

Today has kinda sucked. Just been laying in bed all day.

The closer we get to the date of Mom's death, the more I'm thinking darkly about the week leading up to it.

No one should have to remember helping to change their own mother's adult diapers.

DANGIT WHY DO I KEEP STAYING AWAKE UNTIL 4 AM

My trans birthday is in 4 days
So if u wanna help me reach a goal of 2.8k followers.
That'd be a great gift

Sorry, I'm 21 years older than you. I've passed my expiration date. *crawls into trash can* x_x