🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️ Kas 🌻 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

relapsed again. arm is killing me. palpitations.

I feel like the only reason I play CoD is because everyone around me plays it. It really sucks.

In good news. I've been with my girlfriend for a year now. And it's been fucking incredible.

I love Ash so much. <3

I dont want to participate in this horrible fucked up world. It's done nothing but break me at every single turn. I deserve so much better.

Transitioning on top of all this has been really hard.

Getting my face poked with a million holes just so I can look in the mirror and not want to blow my head off while simultaneously suffering from incredibly crippling fatigue.

The pressure of being ill and the existential possibility of losing my autonomy and livelihood has permanently fucked my brain up.

I persistented for months. For what. For what?

I've never felt so hopeless in my life up until this medical episode. It completely fucked me in all holes.

I just feel so betrayed by a system that is supposed to 'look after' me.

I feel I was robbed of nearly a year of my life just because of a debilitating deficiency that 95 Percent of my doctors missed.

Living in this hellhole while transitioning has been excruciating. The constant adhd battle of dealing with appointments, health issues and a slew of constant never ending shit has been a hell I wouldn't wish on anyone.

I can't believe this system has sustained itself for as long as it has.

Capitalism is so incompatible with Neurodiversity that I find myself genuinely questioning how the fuck I'm even still going sometimes.

KSA is cool. Shit Optimization for lower end PC's, but nice to see the tech works.

its happening

might be the worst time of my life ngl.

fucked health saga might be over for now.

you can simply choose not to play the shitty video game.

You ever just cry because you love somebody so much.

I am so fucking lucky.

if i die, can the people close to me make sure my family don't bury me with my dead name for the love of god.

The 💉CURE.

Portfolio.

Being stuck on the NHS with no way to speed up the medical process is absolutely fucking sending me.

duloxetine save me

day 2 of taking these fucking meds. feel out of body. pain and fatigue is 'gone' but not gone, if that makes sense.

we nearly pass out, but we ball :D

But i am struggling and sometimes I'm not sure what to do. The NHS feels like I'm banging my head against a Brickwall. And I've been gaslighted more times than I can remember. Being Transgender on top of that doesn't help.

i love living life. but recently dealing with the pain and fatigue and the constant relapsing of symptoms has made me really down. My girlfriend has been with me neck and neck and I'm incredibly lucky and privileged to have that in my life.

going to a back and neck specialist on Saturday.

I've really struggled and faught this last year over elements I can't control. It's been really hard dealing with something God knows how many doctors have been struggling to figure out.

Barotrauma is genuinely peak.