Ubi but sfw

Born to love at my depths and cursed to never have it reciprocated.

One year on and he can’t say i love you to me after 5 years together. My heart hurts.

Lost two subs this month even though i am working so hard :(

I know its hard for everyone rn but i dont understand what i am doing wrong :(

I want to give up.

Heres hoping I never fall in love again.

Literally actually what is the fucking point?

i wasnt supposed to be born. Ive been given a life a brain a body i never wanted to pretend like id ever be enough for anything and instead i daydream of breaking my own bones and digging a grave or going so far away that even as I lay rotting no one would ever find me.

The culmination of everything I’ve ever done has ended in failure. I will die having left my mark nowhere in this world.

WILL I EVER FUCKING BE ENOUGH? WILL ANY OF THE EFFORT I MAKE EVER TRULY MATTER? HAS ALWAYS BEEN ALL FOR NOTHING?

I dont think I can keep hustling forever guys.

She’s probably awake right now getting ready for work and i havent slept yet or eaten in months or felt like ive been living a life worth living at all.

Thank you dear.

Why am I just a stepping stone when for me she was a soulmate

I keep going to sleep and waking up and thinking its just a bad dream and seeing shes left my circle for real and it just fucking hurts. I was thinking of sending her one of my bond bracelet modules. I wore our ring everyday. It was supposed to be forever. Why? Does everyone who says they’ll stay go

Oh. Heartbroken instead lol

Full of rage unable to ground myself unable to even solve the thing thats filling me with rage? no food no tips no support

Tired of only managing to eat bread. Why does everything else make me sick. Why is this happening to me

Ive been putting in a lot of work on my fansly and here and it feels like no one is engaging anymore and im miserable. where is monie for angel

Another warning. Theres no sexy posting here i am just fucking sad

I think I would make a beautiful sunset.

Hard to love. Harder to kill.

It feels like ive been chasing the nostalgia of growing up maybe to try and fill the mom shaped hole in my heart

Its been the worst uphill battle of my life and every time it feels like im moving forward it hits me again. What if she didnt feel the same as my dad does? What if she wouldnt be proud of me now? What if after its all finally fucking over I dont even get to tell her I love her in the afterlife

Thank you. Im just struggling really badly i think

I miss my mom. I miss my mom so bad. This is the first gotcha day where i know shes gone and it doesnt just feel like a bad dream Im not gonna wake up from. Its not fair. Im 27. We shouldve had more time.

Anyways im sad and i miss my boyfriend

New username just dropped

Crashing out