Cassie! 🫀🌀🔞

And also because red is my mother's color

The people I love associate me with the color red because the pain of Too Much Color is red

I MAKE PEOPLE SEE COLORS BECAUSE I PAINT IN THE RAINBOW!

LOVE, CHIMERA

The cataclysmic event: the witnessing of feeling

the animal, Human; the Human, animal

A part of the puzzle is to accept being (im)mortal

A part of the puzzle is to accept being (im)mortal

the animal, Human; the Human, animal

The first color I've ever known was Red

My brain is a big pool of watercolor that you can dip your finger in and get messy

The metaphysical context through which to understand myself. My soul's substrate

Lately I'm seeing the things that underpin every interaction I've ever had which make up me

Smear around my colors and join me in the mess

Girl painter

i make decisions, and then they are Assisted

If you can believe anything, know that you will be full of colors again

Even just a few colors is too little. How can only a piece of me keep the rest held up?

I am a girl made of rainbows and when I have no colors I get very sick

to become as a mold. to become as spores

I yearn for much of what I was. I figure I can repurpose my corpse's nutrients

isn't it strange, that a girl can lose herself so wholly that she becomes a husk of herself?

hold my hand—no, *really* hold it—and step into the endless oceans with me

neophyte, acolyte, girl of a broken mind who made of herself an infinitely deep rabbithole egregore. a personhood formed of the vestiges of herself she left behind. more real than anything else she had ever been

I offer you the warmest nook in the quietest place if you join me in the act of remembrance

it is the happiest tragedy. it is a history of deceit and the sunlit smile that resists it all

I am the inverse entropic

there is a perpetual motion engine inside of you and it is the part of you that loves