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Hyvää itsenäisyyspäivää!!!

Happy Independence day!!!

It is really demotivating when i have probably close to a hundred scripts and months of work and the game still isnt anywhere close to be releasable

so embarrassing havin to tug your lil soft meat around like a rabid dog when it gets a piece of raw steak just to get the balls perfectly shaved

bruh i washed my hair yesterday and it looks dirty whyyyy

also yes i know my bangs are uneven, waiting for until i have money to get a haircut and a re-dye for the split dye

in this job market, i wouldn’t be mad to be the trans diversity hire, ill prove my skills after the hiring

it hits different tho

real positive impact looks like this

seems like my weekend break has pretty much continued until this point

I did do one small online test and got a certificate, but i havent really coded this week yet

I think i got more exhausted/overwhelmed than i realised. I should reel myself back in step by step

Ive negletted my looks and myself again and feel like a little gobling but its so hard to start

idk but probs it only matters if ur temps are high

if temps are fine then its fine

its only 8:40 am and even with coffee and my adhd meds i feel like im already crashing

Idk should i push through and work at school, or go home, sleep for 6 hours and then work

i wake up early, go to sleep early, yet the nights where i need sleep the most i cant fall asleep

tomorrow is back to the grind but at this rate its gonna be with 5ish hours of sleep, ive been laying in bed with eyes closed for 3 hours

if you’re lacking, you don’t necessarily have to work TWICE the hours another needs to, just be more patient. Give yourself more time, it’ll come

also, surround yourself with others with same interests, you can learn so much from just casual conversations

Something ive recently realised, that the biggest thing holding people back is not natural skill or ability to learn new things,

its self doubt

I am not great at math, and still a noob programmer, but i do believe by just sticking to it i will make it. Even if i started late, and have to work more

YouTube video by Valve Half-Life 2: 20th Anniversary Documentary

most inspiring thing ive seen yet. if you want, you can become a game dev. No one else is going to do it for you!!!

youtu.be/YCjNT9qGjh4?...

Was feeling tired but yesterday and today spent completely disconnected from school has helped

Last meeting with artists and their new art for ratstonauts made me rly happy, and i want their art to be alive in the game

Back to the grind or monday, tomorrow i still have other plans

pics unrelated

diet soda girl throws up a sign

i follow destiny and suddenly…

Im gonna peasant max and make veggie soup

hahaha truue

Its bcs he dresses badly, and keeps getting comments about it

Like not badly badly but his tie is always twisted, button shirt not tucked in etc

What rly helps to stress is rave music about doing drugs and toxic gay relationships :3

Main obstacle rn: my inexperience with mobile/android development

Im glad i got a low end android to use for testing. UI transition looks awful, and idk is it performance, or the 30hz screen. Also screen responsiveness. Idk how much of that is my code, and how much is the low end phone affecting it

I am worried that will I get my game into a playable state by christmas

I will do my all ofc. I cant continue it until summer tho, since ill be spending my spring in an internship.

I’d like to have at least a working, okay version 1.0 out at christmas

”sloppy style” made me re-read LMAOO

winter fit!!!!