Fandaniel 👨🏻‍🌾

Not protesting against it is the same as agreeing to it in my book.

Look at you! You're already complimenting me?~ How sweet. Who would have known /the/ Elidibus is such a romantic person?

Which is accepting it!

[ He's.. linked their arms. Probably to be a little shit. ]

What a joyful day, wouldn't you agree? We should celebrate like couples are wont to do!

Pity coming from you sounds incredibly fake.

It /is/ painful.

...
Of course. You're right, my Lord. Not a day goes by where I don't curse the knowledge bestowed upon me.

..You really need to work on your social skills.
Do you need anything?

》 staring at my stupid ships and praying

So you accept it! What a happy couple we are.

We share one? Romantic.

You make up for it by being incredibly handsome.

EMPEROR XANDE.... YOU'D RATHER I DIDN'T THINK?!

Wow. Thanks.

I think

>> sorry for the near-non-existent responses I have been suffering for a week and a half now and it's starting to drain all energy i have

Welcome back pain and suffering

Can you play along ONCE.

Peachy.

Yeah I'm okay

[ <— looks like he hasn't slept in weeks ]

Because, I don't know. You seem like you need it.
Stop questioning it.

[ Still staring at a wall. Wow.
Thoughts should shut up, he thinks. ]

Really?~ I'd like to see that.

Heh. I suppose we will have to spend even more time together for some one on one lessons, then.

>> surely this will have no consequences whatsoever.

itself from all of this pain.
Lock away all the pain, and pretend to be someone new entirely.
.. Being hit with the reality of things is more than he can really handle. He can't even bring himself to answer anymore.

What even is there to say, anyway?
It's all true.. ]

Shut up...

[ And yet, he knows this is all true. How could it not be? .. He's speaking to himself. He knows all of this to be true.
The delusion he's managed to convince himself of is starting to crumble. The delusion that he really is a new person.

Maybe it was a way for his mind to protect

Because it /hurts/! More than anything! You're a living reminder of all the things I've done, I should-
You should... I..
I don't know! Disappear! Stop haunting me! I'm tired of hurting..

That final sentence hurt more than anything else. A sentence he's heard his mind tell him over and over, but hearing it being said out loud feels like he's gotten stabbed in the chest once more.

He's a horrible person, and people really should treat him as such. ]

Stop.. Stop talking, I don't-

[ He's covering his ears, as if it would help. Trembling, pulling at his hair at the same time. His breathing is heavy, eyes wide. Pure panic.

Guilt will forever be the worst feeling in the world, and it keeps growing and growing. It sucks. He feels dizzy.

>> days without a kieren breakdown over just who he is: 0

Shut up.. Shut UP SHUT UP! I don't care! Stop using logic on me! I should just-
I should just get rid of you, right?! If you're gone, the thing reminding me of my past is gone! Everything will be okay again!

[ Staring at a wall reliving the horrors he's seen as Amon.
He's tired of this shit. ]