Cerys

Squash and sweet potato soup

Hamish the tuxedo cat curled on the sofa

Morning lovelies!

6 is sick and sounded like she had the croup this morning so a day off on the sofa..

Winning on mum points, it’s not even 09:00 and got her comfy, made soup and gone out for some soft buns, a comic and some pop..

Also have a bonus grumpy chonky Hamish cat.

Anyone else for soup?

Afternoon lovely

Thats the badger!

"but what if I can fix this machine with a spare part was it still dead on arrival"
....

"er... yes naturally"

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"But what when I need to plan a building with fried batter, is that DOA?"

*chomps doughnut*

"yes as well"

Turn back!! They all talk funny 😜

Oh god... I know what that means 🤮

I've gotten lucky this morning, a mere 20 minutes defining what DOA means. I'm so dense I thought it was pretty simple, apparently not.

OH GOD! when a train is cancelled do you have to remain on it forever???

Is it like Langoliers?

NEIL! NOOOOOOOOOO!

hang on..

is that a replacement train? (genuinely doesn't understand trains)

I hope you dont get held up by any sailors or 100 guys in a parking lot.

Thanks!

being 39 rocks 😜

Good lad! 😁

I just spent what feels like 72 hours preparing this Pink pomelo and I am gonna scoff it all on my own and not share with the kids….

Yay!!!

I’m not sure what you mean but I’m from Roker so happy for you! Have a sneck lifter on me.

OMG was that all it took?

😜

I kinda like it when people visit like other mums and their kids or even my family, provided I can lose myself being a host and cooking for everyone and joining in when comfortable and being able to calm down alone for a little when overwhelmed.

More confident the more "me" and comfortable I feel.

I'm so old and kinda used to it, and stuck somewhere where I am mostly on my own, I just own it pretty much.

I enjoy being me now and not having to pretend I am something I am not. So I'm kinda happy to not really be that socially awkward and force myself into that position.

Awwwwww thanks Jo 💜

It was equally as "amazing" in that it was cosy, fun weird and allowed for some curling in a sunbeam 😜

Totally.

Masking to fit in and then it going wrong because apparently that's not right at that moment.

Just immense self consciousness, everything I am doing is wrong and weird, I am hideous and strange, and I am holding myself in a crazy way, and what the hell am I doing with my hands/arms.

🫠

I am browsing Discogs....

Stop me!

Hey lovely lady!

Thanks! 💜

It was the other day but thanks lovely, I caught up to you, only without the amazing skin! 😜

100%

around 2 or 3 people I can cope with, I'm not confident or happy, but if its people I know and trust I can cope and appear "normal" I guess.

Add more and I just become worse and worse, where its just draining, and honestly impossible for me.

Thanks lovely, it was a send off based on fun, so was some laughs for most.

Got hit by it only after a few days/a week though.

Weird and complex this thing called life, and unpacking old things buried down inside 🫠

but what if any of them sees Neil!!!

Yay! fanks! 💜

played some games with the kids, made some nice noms. It was rather nice.

Perfect age ❤️

Then I do sometimes say something, and then get talked over or it just falls flat and people move on.

I had a friend there who must have sensed me panicking on my own that she came over just as I started to cry to take me for a quiet walk outside for a bit.

Then I went home.

I really can't cope in groups. I never could, I don't know how to mingle, and I get so anxious I don't say anything, and then I have said nothing so long I start panicking I was quiet so long I can't possible say something now..

EXACTLY 39...

not a second more.

And yeah, sorry, I miss being here, but I get so busy sometimes, and then its this big thing to login and I get anxious so I hide.

Thanks lovely, it was the other day but it went off well. Normally I am sick, one year I had tonsilitis and could barely breathe, another year covid.

It was rather strange to feel "well"

and happy belated 1st and second advent flower.

🤶