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"40mg/ml" is about writing while sick, obsessing while feeling deeply-grotesque, and has some of my favorite homoeroticism in it. www.patreon.com/posts/40mg-m...

"Liquidators" is different from the style I work in now, but I find myself thinking back to it frequently, lately. www.patreon.com/posts/liquid...

Maybe "dreadful vibes, thank you."

It's making me glad that I flamed out of the Bay Area and became a depressed Atlantic seaboard type.

I wonder how gelled his hair was in that moment.

Fuck James Franco, but Vincent D'Onfrio would have been incredible as Judge Holden.

Everyone is married and chilled out and then that bullshit happens.

Sexy Beast is about what happens when your dogshit family washes back up to ruin your polycule's good time.

Very cool that the stupid show about Ed Gein has even worse gender politics than Silence of the Lambs. His hometown was right to burn his house down and stop it from becoming a tourist trap.

Anyone living up Nora's ass for not treating their inane slop nozzles as liberatory technology are just aimless ronin causing shit, now that they can't score points with weird "discourse." As juiceless as they are annoying and dead-end.

These people are being absolute fucking freaks to you.

i will never stop being mad about how dems squandered a 65% approval for trans folk - including a majority of *republicans* - in a single term

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Call your senator if you see them on this list and tell them no to KOSA.

It's one of those things that I wound up reading because people used to ask me about it while trying to figure out why I'm so weird.

Thoughts on Ancillary Justice, if you've read it?

Devilman grasping onto Satan (Ryo) with tears flowing down his face. Devilman is dark with strong bat like wings and large animalistic muscle. Satan (Ryo) is stoic, beautiful and appears somewhat like a glimmering ghost. The androgynous hands of Satan are held near to Devilman’s face as they study his tears. They are surrounded by a vibrant fire. Cascading around them both are the strange long finger-like wings of Satan.

Devilman 💖

Yeah definitely the same for me.

An endless series of high-G maneuvers lately.

Anyway it's okay to be a little weird and busted because it means you aren't dead. Nobody is inventing the machine that makes you into one of the Evangelion girls. Thank god. Remember how Evangelion ended?

Getting older can take the edge off this, or amplify it, too. Depends on how you can keep things in perspective. Not craving a perfection that never really existed in yourself and others is hard, but also instinctive, if you can deal with age.

And that's not even getting into the lost time. The resentment can manifest as negative stereotyping that comes as the flipside to the positive stereotyping of the gender/sex you "are." That can be incredibly toxic.

Like... People don't assume I'm a per se woman (except when I'm dressed as a schlubby Fargo character, somehow.) People in the know pick up on it, but that's about it. It took a lot of work to think of my old self as someone who kept us alive, not someone who abused me by occupying my body.

I think that a lot of this, on a sort of macro, cultural-enforcement level, is how much it fucking sucks trying to rebuild oneself after being forced into adulthood without trans care. It turns the body horror and amplified body issues outward into a sex-pessimism.

Oh, dammit!

Never let it be said that I don't have a flair for the dramatic.

Thinking about getting a Devilman Crybaby tattoo on my hand.

I have so much half-done writing that's largely attributable to the Oshii GitS movies, Use of Weapons, Ancillary Justice, Genocidal Organ, and Kathe Koja's early stuff. They'd probably diagnose me with so much cool shit.

I want to pick Oshii's brain about Innocence probably more than any other creator/work besides maybe insane Catholic horror movie guys.