wren

i think his thought process was something like “MUAHHAHA TEHEHEHEEHEHE😇”

nevermind the muscle suit, the real horror for dan was having to don the mould vans again

is this that one show where they’re naked and afraid

top 10 worst out of context photos

dan howell on the hard launch podcast set. he is wearing a torso skin suit with pecs and abs and colourful shorts. he has his legs cross and hands clasped over his knee.

purr

omggggg someone called ‘overdue assignment’ keeps emailing me stoppppp they’re such a fan pls no paparazzi

getting to watch hard launch and hr ep2 react later is what’s keeping me going

and now i have spend more money on a beverage i don’t particularly want but need to pay to use the cafe so i can sit down and do work. at least this beverage is decent

got a mocha earlier that was basically like drinking straight up dark chocolate it was Not good

i am afeared for hard launch tomorrow what will phil have dan wearing

ANYWAYSSSS food is fuel i love eating im gonna make a delicious dinner now <3

custard pots, baking supplies, canned fruit, beans, soup, glassware, you name it. and worst of all, a bottle of fortisip 😀 did not need that reminder

my dad was clearing out a cupboard in the kitchen that hasn’t been organised in yonks and everything is all over the kitchen Help

yes it is due tonight. no i will not finish it in time bc i have plans with my friends in 2 hours. alas

for all i panic about keeping up with the workload of this course i really do like it, i mean im currently designing an ideal enclosure for a snow leopard, no limitations, it’s literally gonna be in the mountains. im thriving

this is so random ex dee but i was just imagining reading in public and then reading a giant book in public i.e. tabinof and that image alone is hilarious

imagining sitting on a park bench reading tabinof in a performative male way except ur just trying to find ur soulmate

remembers that i never seemed to participate in those convos with our friends or if they were practicing makeup for a disco party or smth she noticed i seemed to panic if i had to include myself in it LMFAOAO bless me. took another few years to realise why all that made me want to shrivel up

im really banging on now that i’ve started i cant stop oop. anyway a couple months ago my best friend -who i’ve known since i was 13- and i were talking about gender and she asked me how did i figure out im non binary and i got onto not being interested in makeup, dresses, etc and she told me she

i defo felt like that. i was lucky tho i kinda toed the line between Girl and Weird Thing. like i was Girl enough to have friends, i wasn’t outcast, i enjoyed some girly things. as i got older tho i felt less and less inclined towards girlhood tho. and womanhood. shivers. that scared me.

ive never felt ‘pretty like other girls’ bc well. boo you aren’t girl. i was also always the tall kid and super lanky and a bit awkward so i felt like this weird goblin beside what i saw as the ‘perfect/standard’ girls. i couldn’t articulate it back then but when i look back at the standout moments

shunned for not fitting into man or woman and for who i am attracted to is a quiet but constant presence that i tend to quash bc “oh well just accept it,
no matter how you try not everybody is going to understand so get over it!” i say. FUCK YOYOYOUOUOUOYU

im around girls that i couldn’t quite figure out the reason behind but ive known for a while now that part of it is my gender, but also being lesbian. i am hyper aware of it around girls bc i dont want to make them uncomfortable or smth as if im fucking predatory. this fear of being pointed at and

like a creepy little boy trapped in a very feminine body” no one would relate. yeah. i always feel like an imposter of sorts especially when i display perceived feminine traits or behaviours it feels like Oh No nobody knows what i Actually am. and i’ve always felt a shame and disgust at myself when

saw a vid of someone explaining that before they realised they were trans/nb they would relate when girls say stuff like “i hate my boobs” “i hate my curves” in an insecure way but obvi unbeknownst to the nb person it was a dysphoria thing for them, and then when they ask the girls “do you ever feel

whew ok at least it’s over two days but that’s intense nonetheless

omg and the fucking german song was on the phatreon

8 HOURS IS CRAZY WAAAAH GOOD LUCK DUDE

i was so happy to see her show up and the fact it was the heated rivalry one was amazing. i must listen to her podcast some time

this whole active era is exhausting