Mack

400 cal salad today n I'm done. No more

I wish other people's self confidence didn't make me so jealous

Doing dance class today. Most other people in the class are so skinny. Good motivator. When I'm smaller I'll be able to move my body so much better

I'm so gross

God damnit

Running my fav trail in the mud cus a little rain is NOT stopping me today

Didn't fast today like I planned. Hate it. Not gonna purge even tho I wanna cus I cannot be doing that shit 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

Wouldn't have gone for the bagel but Im gonna have multiple clients this afternoon n I need my hands steady

coffee for breakfast, piece of bacon & half a bagel for lunch. Kinda don't wanna eat dinner later but I should rlly get veggies in me today

We are talking again hooray 🎉

Ok I'm just gonna text her I'm being goofy

Went down again this AM 🙂‍↕️

One thing I rlly rlly dont wanna do in this relapse is start b/ping again I have have have to be strong enough not to do that

I told this girl I needed space and she's giving me space and that's cool but I miss her now and idk how to start talking again 😵‍💫

Trying to hang out w my friend and my roommate won't fucking go away 🙃

Stuck at cw for a couple days but haven't been restricting super hard...this can be remedied

Might take a break from T until I can have a big messy crying session bcus this shit makes it impossible to shed more than a couple manly tears

Now I feel like what I prepped is too many calories 😭😭😭

I think they were more nervous than I was lol i had fun I hope to see them again

As much as "go for a walk" sounds like bullshit advice, doing it every day can help really start the habit of moving your body more without overexerting yourself and burning out

Absolute angel of a client today made up for this BS from yesterday

Nowhere near my GW but the fat on my face is going away and my tummy looks less bloated and I'm definitely doing the right things 😤

looking at skinny pics of me makes me so mad like why did i ruin it 💔

Have a date tonight and I'm gonna try n dress cute n I hope they like me and don't just think I'm fat and gross 😵‍💫

hell yeah

Wait I need to figure out how to make these asap

Meal prepped for the whole week today and already calculated the cal per day if I just eat my prepped food and hopefully not have to think about what I will/won't consume 🙂‍↕️

My roommate is so fucking loud and obstructive and intrusive and obnoxious I hate it so much

Bad at being poly and relapsing on my ed is crazy like pick a struggle