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I’m lonely but too anxious to even talk to people on vrchat, and all my friends gave up on me. I don’t blame them but fuck it’s lonely. I don’t remember the last time someone even asked how my day was.

I’m so incredibly lonely but afraid to reach out to anyone. Driven away all my friends with my insane bullshit, No energy left to make new ones especially when I’m still such a mess. I hate this so much. Just existing has become torture. Idk how much longer I can handle this.

It has been a while yeah :( thank you for the offer, I appreciate it

Yeah. I’m on year 8. So far I’ve had 7 therapists, three psychiatrists, three doctors, one psych ward stay, 37 medication changes, and no success.

Idk what to do about my mental health anymore, I go to all my appointments and take all my meds, and I’m only getting progressively worse. I’d say I’m in a crisis right now, but I don’t know the last time I wasn’t like this. It just. Is my existence now.

People try to hate me, like get in line bitch I’m here to hate me first

Flew all the way the way out to Chicago for MFF, only to sit alone in my hotel room and cry the entire time. And then got into arguments and chased away the few friends that talked to me all weekend. Thanks mental illness, anything else?

omg it me!

I feel like I’m slipping further away every day

Love your art style! Gonna think on this if I can make it work on my budget

If you’re at Foxtrot tonight, come say hello!!!

Screenshot of two reddit posts, one with a headline "Trump is getting crazier and wilder. So Why is the Race Still So Close?" followed by the second post "Elon Musk says a Kamala Harris presidency would 'doom humanity' and 'destroy' the Mars program"

i wonder why

Just heard about this. This country is bullshit.

Those guys that hate -
The feminist agenda
The trans agenda
The liberal agenda
I bet half of them would have heart attacks if they realized there's a conservative agenda.

Go us!

☔️

I feel like I’m struggling with agoraphobia or something. I never want to go out, or get stressed when I have to

Love my dog so much

Similar situation for me, I’ve been on the generic for a while and I dread the day I might have to switch back to name brand… I recently got a job, which means Medicaid will inevitably kick me off and I’ll have to start spending a LOT of money on meds each month :/

Hell if my life is anything to go by, it only seems to get worse

I don’t know how they’ve avoided doing something like this for so long, especially as they’re working to bring VRC to mobile, more and more kids are going to sign up. They really need some sort of age verification/minor and adult separations soon.

Can’t wait for it to get even harder for me to function on a daily basis :/

Seems like the adderall crisis is the topic of the day, figured I’d add to the pile of struggles - I’ve had to repeatedly change pharmacies and dosage because they keep running out of it. My psychiatrist regularly apologizes to me for the whole situation, and it’s not even his fault.

What a shitshow

Oooo pretty

Aight bois, 90 minutes of work left, then I get to ride the motorcycle in rush hour traffic for the first time woooo

Wise words indeed, was running the old Bridgeport in my shop today and that cranky hunk of iron will make you regret it if you’re not being safe lol

We’re banning fast GPUs? Huh I’m way out of the loop on this one

Now that I have a job again, I need to figure out how to kill time on my breaks. I wanna avoid most social media, don’t wanna get sad before going back into work. Kinda wish I was better at Blender so I could do some sculpting, but my laptop isn’t really strong enough anyways. Hmmm

When one entire computer isn’t enough to play audio. Lmao this is wild