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Been taking care of my foster sister’s baby recently while she gets on her feet after moving back home. That means every day at about this time, the house is quiet for naps and honestly? Immaculate vibes. She’s asleep. The dog’s asleep. It’s been rainy every day and the house is so quiet and cozy.

There are literally zero people I can talk to about how shitty I feel right now.

I really took the era where pharmacies were just giving away COVID tests for granted because now it requires a hospital visit to even find out if that’s why you can’t smell, breathe, or sleep. 🫠

anti-prime sale

FYI Bookshop.org has anti-prime free shipping rn!

I just want everyone to know that Mamdani did way better on his SATs than I did and my job is basically “professional smart guy on the internet.”

“Sprite, Seven Up, and… what’s the other one called now? Used to be Sierra Mist?”

@therealthaddius.bsky.social :

“Pspspspsps.”

My foster sister and best friend since sixth grade just arrived in our hometown tonight. She left her useless ex and brought her baby girl home to where she still has family and friends - and I plan to give her and that baby everything they want and need within my ability. 🥰

if you have it to give, help people to live

Do we still need stories about an aspirational immigrant who's so devoted to his adopted country that he regularly puts himself in danger to help even those who fear and distrust him, and who's primary antagonist is an egotistical tech billionaire?

Yes, fucking obviously. You numpties.

Anyway, that’s just a quick life update. Things in my neck of the woods have been tough lately, but that’s life in this country for most folks now. No one is coming to save us. We have to save one another.

My aunts are both widows. My mom is disabled. My sister has extensive issues that make traditional employment hard to maintain. And you guys already know my story. So for us, this might be a chance to do things we are good at and enjoy, while also helping secure our kids’ financial futures.

My family is comprised of talented women who know how to cook, bake, craft, sew, write, perform, and have many other skills. Over the holiday weekend, I finally talked them into joining forces to run a family business, so we can hopefully improve all our situations.

I’m scared. The things happening in the world scare me, for people in their direct path and for my children who have to live in the world to come. All I feel lately is fear, anxiety, and loneliness.

Anyway, I hope all that makes sense. I mostly just wanted to say something so you guys knew I wasn’t actively avoiding you; I just haven’t had it in me to be very present. I hope you’re all okay. Love you dearly. 💕

I have been doing what I can within my own community offline. I have been protecting and educating my children. But every time I’m online I just feel overwhelmed and defeated and it makes it hard to even function, so I am having to pick my battles and invest energy where I can.

I haven’t had the mental and emotional energy to do much when it comes to social media, or even socialization in general. I am going to try to be more present, but I can’t promise anything. Things just aren’t great, & I know they’re that way & much worse for others. It’s hard to face.

Hey so, you may have noticed I have been absent for… a while. To be very honest, it has just been hard for me to be online since January, and it doesn’t show much promise for improvement , given the state of the country and the world. Given that I’ve been struggling with that, I’ve been reclusive.

I think this summer might be a good time to take stock of my life and decide what should stay and what should go. If I can’t work, I should find other productive things to focus on. We’ve got family moving home this summer, so at least there’s that to look forward to.

A few other updates: My creative spark has been slightly damped by personal and health complications, but things are looking up a bit now. I stay pretty anxious given the ~everything going on these days, but don’t we all. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Got the news yesterday that half of the contract work I had been doing has been terminated because the city I was working with decided to replace writers for their local paper with AI-written blog posts.

So anyway, how are we all holding up in this hellscape, friends?

The next week is insanely busy for big, blended-faith family, so I just want to wish a blessed Passover and a Happy Holy Week/Easter to everyone who observes! 💕🕊️

This is just Country Roads Georgie.

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girl what the fuck??? was today???

My favorite things are eating out friends and not using commas.

Happy trans day of visibility to all my trans and gender nonconforming loves! You are such valuable additions to this world and to my life, specifically 💕

painting by guoldu of a trans person stitching stars on themselves amidst clouds in the sky. bright stars in the background mirror the stars on their chest.

the tailor

#guolduart #originalart

why does his man follow me everywhere

WITH THAT SAID I am praying I am able to function somewhat normally tomorrow because I have a looooooong to-do list. 😅

I’ve spent my entire day in bed because I genuinely couldn’t walk without severe pain, but I still feel like I had a good day because T & the kids make my days beautiful and bright. 💕

The ANXIETY when I saw a hey girlie message this morning and I knew it would either be an MLM pitch or something absolutely wild. (It was neither, but I am owed restitution for freaking me out like that lmao)