AubreyThereYet

Intrusive thoughts amiright. I should turn off this computer and never turn it back on.

Woke up feeling good for about five minutes. Then the gloom sets in again.

Tonight there is a big sad. Like I feel disconnected from reality.

When your mom comes over to visit and I tell her my doctor wants to text me for autism and her response is “That makes sense”. Damn mom got zero chill.

WHY CANT I JUST SLEEP??????

I won’t drink as much as last night. I won’t drink as much as last night. Proceeds to drink as much as last night.

Had seven shots of tequila and then didn’t go to sleep now I am sobering up and I cant sleep. Just laying here feeling emotional.

Sometimes I wish I could be more assertive and not put everyone else’s feelings ahead of my own.

A couple shots of tequila and things start to get quieter.

The darker and quieter it gets the darker and louder my brain gets. #mentalhealth

I have never craved human interaction more in my life. #neurospicy #adhd

I appreciate them trying but it still hurts.

I can relate. Lately I feel like I will never be confident enough to present more and will waste the remainder of my time on this planet stewing in my own head. Never really being Aubrey. I know my friends don’t misgender me on purpose either the don’t know or they know and are trying.

It yells at me saying “you have no friends and will never accomplish anything so why bother.”

These early mornings are the worst my house is asleep and my body wakes me up at three AM and my brain refuses to shut up.

Some day I will make friends and play games with them and be the chaos.

Woke up at 3:30 am and couldn’t fall back to sleep. Then went for bloodwork and I am exhausted now.

Bait and switch is the order of the day. Play at centrist or a little left leaning get into power and then show your real colors when it is too late. Burn it all down.

What's the name of the official droid of the White House? P3-DO.

Today is a weird sort of day. Like I feel like I don't exist. Like I am in a fog.

All this secret labs chair has really done is make it easier to fall asleep in. #secretlabs

Slept in till ten this morning. I hate it.

Stayed up too late playing 7 days 2 die. I am a great housewife in that game. Though now I can’t sleep irl.

Mira #Kpopdemonhunters

Coming end of October I will probably have a couple months of not working so gonna probably be streaming a lot I guess haha..

Lemme just make a funny real quick
#VShojoDownfall

Please support the Greater Philadelphia Walk this fall to help #stopsuicide Please support the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention to help save lives and bring hope to those affected by suicide. Donate or register to walk!

Its that time of year again where I help with a great cause. The AFSP Out of the Darkness walk. I will be having more information in days to come. #afsp

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Brain is being a real bully today.

The worst part about waking up at 6am on a Sunday is everyone else in this house will be asleep for a couple more hours and I am stuck with just emo music and my own thoughts.

Keeps me from pressing the go live button every day.