♡𝙿𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜♡

But it wouldnt have worked out anyway. Sooner or later the same thing would've happened.

I think he was genuinely the person who showed me the most care and affection and made me feel seen

I think its funny because I miss him more than any of my exes and we weren't even together lmaoo😭 (its not funny im actually very distraught.)

Convincing myself im not a real person makes me feel better
None of this is real so I dont need to be scared

Screaming and fighting over the stupidest things
Marriage seems like a wonderful thing

The slightest negative reaction towards something im happy about and suddenly I don't want to do anything anymore

Its fine idc i wasnt like excited or anything💔🥀

I'm almost all grown up now
I miss when I was 10 years old, thinking 16 was so far and wise
My sister was 15 when she left us
I wonder if she was just as scared as I am

I wish my mom had cared a little more back then. Maybe things would've been different.

I dont want to want things anymore

Idk how else to describe this feeling besides empty but saying it like that sounds edgy💔

Im actually gaining weight and its like yayy I needed to do that(ive been underweight for a lonngg time) but at the same time internally I feel not very good about it despite knowing it is good for me

Wtf is cognitive fatigue bro this shit is so rigged can I quit 😭😭😭

Throwback to this gem I found the other day🙏

IT CAAMMEEE

My flesh disgusts me as if it were mold
I feel rotten

Just woke up from the fattest nap and my brain and body are all tingly wow this is so nice I think I could just lay here for the next few hours

Yess im so excited (≡^∇^≡)

Its from Amazon 😛
Im gonna put lace on the trim of it to make it look bedazzled 😋😋😋

Its gonna be here Saturday im so excited 😍😍😍

I GOT MY DESKK

God forbid I have to get up and do ANYTHING😭
This world is a prison💔

I hate that I miss him and nobody understands how much I do despite everything and I hate that even more.

I want to cry im so tired of everything even just waking up feels like too much this is so fufking rigged

I actually genuinely dont want to do this anymore I dont want to do anything

PLEASE I cant do this anymore bro💔

I domt know if its working but they seem chill for now🥀

Been sitting here in my room for like an hour watching videos of people vacuuming whilst gradually increasing the volume to try and desensitize my rabbits to it so I can vacuum without having to move them out of the room constantly 💔

ALSO im SOOOOOO fucking tired of being TIRED all the time. LIKE ILL GET SO EXAUSTED WHEN ALL I'VE DONE IS GET OUT OF BED💔💔💔

Ts is so rigged bro🥀

I hate when I have a really good day and then night comes and suddenly everything sucks again😍

Sorry I'm dumb im lowkey in my own little world 90% of the time cause this one sucks