Buddy 🦷

I got sick at such a terrible time.

It brought back so much anxiety.

Lucky, I'm able to be seen so fast and HOPEFULLY next Monday I can get my procedure to start feeling better 🙏

New medication is really going well for me.

I took a walk today and was able to enjoy the silence.

Not having my brain yapping at me.

It was wonderful.

I started a new daily medication recently and so far I haven't had alot of side effects.

Just a bit of nausea.

I really hope I can start feeling myself again soon.

❤️

This account has been pretty Inactive, I'm sorry about that!

Around March this year my anxiety went into overdrive.

Recently I've found it really hard to do things I enjoy.

I was given a "take as you need" anxiety medication that helped for a bit..

But it was getting worse...

I almost forgot myself im schizophrenic as I've been super mild recently but it all comes back eventually.

Telling the voice in my head I'll get a lobotomy if it doesn't shut up is a new one.

It worked (for now)

⚠ I'm the voice, mind, but not body of @virtualstella.bsky.social - Check her BlueSky for photos themed around her :3 ⚠

Sophie by Ducc https://payhip.com/b/jGIYy

Zenith by illumes https://illumes.store/b/zenith

Lethal Freet by VERMILION.Studio https://booth.pm/en/items/5832850

If you like
❤ #VRChat and #VRChatphotography
❤ All types of #Avatars
❤ #FBT & #FaceTracking
❤ Being stinky

Hey, I'm Buddy ❤
This is my account where I gush over all things Virtual.

I'm looking for like-minded people... so, hi :3

Here are a couple of photos I've taken recently

This is a Cute Cat/ Alien avatar based on the Glorp cat. She has white hair swept to one side, Green skin, a silver space suit with a deep plunge chest, and plenty of space-themed accents. She's standing on a dark train carriage.

Now and then, I look at E-Girl style avatars, and now and then, I fall in love 👽🛸💚

Zenith by illumes
illumes.store/b/zenith

#VRChat

Finding it wild that
- my body naturally wakes me up the same time everyday
- my nails, hair and skin are the best they have ever been
- my shoulder pain has subsided

Yet I'm the most anxious I've ever been in my life 🤣

In a completely unexpected turn of events my teeth are actually very fine.

No cavity, no teeth needing taking out.

Is this real?

I have the dentist appointment I've been so anxious about, canceled twice and felt off about for months today.

I'm so nervous.

Little life update -

Work is still a lot.

Medication for anxiety helps so much.

My physical health is getting better, pain I was feeling from a strain in my side is healed now.

Taking it day by day.

I think I've damaged a nerve in my hand.

But to make things worse, my stomach hurts so bad that the smell of food makes me gag.

Can't take the painkillers for my hand because can't eat anything

Welp...

This weekend has been an absolute blast

Got to hang out with some cool people

Saw t+pazolite and Roughsketch

Then Played arcade games all day

Idk if I'm on headset rebound from the Pico being bad but I'm looking at two more headsets now

More personal side of things

I find it wild that all my clothing is either too big or fitting nice

Some trousers I brought in the UK are so comfy and fit so nice. I forgot that's how clothing should feel.

I'm actually doing a weight loss challenge this year, so I really hope I can keep this up.

My goal for face tracking might take a bit longer.

The headset I was researching is not the same headset I can actually buy 🫠

I don't have much time at the moment to work on projects or even stream.

But I'm actually super content and happy right now.

I'm working on the new avatar as much as possible and I love her already

I'm back from my vacation!!

I hope I get some time next week to sort some things out for the stream and the project lucky

Then more recently, I've noticed the habit of people only messaging me when they want something,

people who I thought are my friends. Just ignore my DMs but I reply to them in a heartbeat.

The stream is suffering, I'm too busy with work to fix anything or make new things.

It started a few months ago when someone started saying "chat this chat that" very unironically and I find it super disrespectful.

But that's just me.

But I also noticed people treat my streams disrespectfully and it started to bug me ever since.

I kinda want to talk about something somewhere so I guess it's here.

I've been getting the "ick" real bad for some people recently.

The past few days I've unfollowed a few people,

Using AI, reaction content, really creepy behaviour.

I'm starting to think I'm just over it?